In the new Us Weekly (out now), Teen Mom star Amber Portwood opens up living without her 2-year-old daughter Leah.
A post Thursday on UsMagazine.com incorrectly stated the child was taken away from her by Child Protective Services.
She and ex-fiance Gary Shirley actually both agreed that the girl is better off living with her father at the moment.
"Child Protective Services agreed it was safer for her to stay at Gary's because of all the photographers outside my house," says Portwood, 20, whose now-infamous physical attack on her ex led to a domestic abuse investigation by police in her Anderson, Ind., hometown.
Portwood -- who is currently taking meds to cope with anxiety and depression -- tells Us Weekly being away from her girl "is the lowest of the low. Every night she's been saying, 'Where's Mommy?'"
"I feel like everything is spinning out of control, and I'm trying to put the pieces back together," she tells Us Weekly. "I have to get myself better so when I get my baby back, she sees her mom as happy as can be."
For more from the Teen Mom stars -- including whether Maci would ever get back together with Ryan; Farrah's battle with the family of her baby's father and whether Catelynn is cutting ties with her mom -- pick up the new Us Weekly today!