Ali Fedotowsky — the Bachelor contestant who chose her job over Jake Pavelka — couldn't hold back her tears on Monday's Women Tell All special.
"If I could go back and do it differently, I would," said Fedotowsky, 25, a San Francisco-based advertising accounts manager for Facebook.
She said she decided to leave the show to save her job because she wasn't sure love with Pavelka, 32, would last (she said she's been burned so many times before).
In the end, she said she wished she would've taken a bigger risk.
"On my death bed, I don't want to look back and say I didn't love enough," she said.
"If I knew what I know now, would I chose love over work? Yes," she later remarked. "But I would have fought like hell to get that job back!"
Later in the show, when Pavelka appeared on camera, Fedotowsky's eyes filled with tears as he recalled the moment she left him.
He said that part of him was thinking that she was going to "jump" out of the limo as it sped away and risk her job for him.
"I am sorry," she told him. "There are some more tough moments that haven't aired yet," he said, "but that hit about a 10 because I think you are one of the most amazing women I have ever met, and you will always have a friend, no matter what."
As he said that, Fedotowsky wiped back tears.
Fedotowsky shouldn't shed too many tears: Sources tell UsMagazine.com that she will have another shot of love, as she has been tapped to be the next Bachelorette.
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