Kim Kardashian: I Married for Love, Not Ratings
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Kim Kardashian can't keep quiet anymore. One day after filing for divorce from husband of 72 days Kris Humphries, the 31-year-old reality star penned a heartfelt explanation on her official blog Tuesday.
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"First and foremost, I married for love. I can't believe I even have to defend this," she wrote. "I would not have spent so much time on something just for a TV show!"
Though many of her family's biggest milestones have been captured on camera, Kardashian said she was nervous about filming her nuptials for a two-part, four-hour E! special.
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"I share so much of my life on a reality show, that contemplating whether to even film my wedding was a tough decision to make," she explained. "Maybe it turned out to not be the smartest decision. But it's who I am!"
Kardashian added that she's always been a "hopeless romantic" -- not just with Humphries, 26. "I love with all of my heart and soul. I want a family and babies and a real life so badly that maybe I rushed in to something too soon. I believed in love and the dream of what I wanted so badly."
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"I felt like I was on a fast roller coaster and couldn't get off when now I know I probably should have," she realized. "I got caught up with the hoopla and the filming of the TV show that when I probably should have ended my relationship, I didn't know how to and didn't want to disappoint a lot of people."
Kardashian then asked fans to respect her "courage" to walk away from Humphries, "because this isn't easy to go through."
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"I never had the intention of hurting anybody and I accept full responsibility for my actions and decisions, and for taking everyone on this journey with me," she wrote. "It just didn't turn out to be the fairytale I had so badly hoped for."
The E! reality star also denied making any money off her wedding, despite a reported $17 million payday; Kardashian also announced plans to donate wedding gifts to the Dream Foundation.
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"I'm sorry if I have hurt anyone," she wrote, "but my dad always told me to follow my heart I believe now that I really am."
