She's the heroine of the blockbuster Twilight franchise -- and gets to make out with Robert Pattinson -- but Kristen Stewart doesn't always put on a happy face at red carpet events and other appearances.
"People say I'm miserable all the time," Stewart, 20, says in the June issue of Elle magazine. (At the Met Gala, the actress was ripped to shreds for the "Chanel catastrophe" that she donned for the NYC event.)
She explains, "It's not that I'm miserable. It's just that somebody's yelling at me...I literally, sometimes, have to keep myself from crying," on the red carpet. "It's a physical reaction to the energy that's thrown at you."
Then there's her demeanor on late night talk shows or awards fest. "It's funny that when I go onstage to accept an award, they think I'm nervous, uncomfortable, and awkward," Stewart quips, "and I am--but those are bad words for them."
The edgy star also resents losing her privacy to worldwide fame. "Somebody knocked on my hotel room door and asked for a light, then said that they were a big fan. I was like, 'Do you really need me to light your cigarette? How do you know what room I'm in?' I can’t be by myself and I like being by myself."
Stewart continues to be coy about her romantic status with costar Pattinson. "I would never cheapen my relationships by talking about them," she quips. "People say, ‘Just say who you’re dating. Then people will stop being so ravenous about it.’ It’s like, No they won’t! They’ll ask for specifics.”
The Twilight Saga: Eclipse premieres June 30.