I have always been attractive to the same sex as far as 8 or 9 years old. I'm 45 yrs old now and I still feel that attraction to women. I got married, had children thinking that this would change the ways I feel and it didn't change at all. The marriage just never felt right. I got divorced and focused on my children who are now adults and the feeling didn't go ways. After some soul searching, I finally excepted that I am gay. I have never been with a women because of fear. I did like a girl alot when I was 13 years and never stopped thinking of her and now I know why; I was in love with. I even actually found her after many lost years and now that we're adults the feeling is so strong that I can't bring my self to tell her how I feel for fear that I will loose her friendship. She is openly gay her self and is a beautiful person and I can't stop thinking about her. Being gay is not a chose it's a feeling towards others and who it makes you feel inside.




