I have struggled with anorexia for 6 years....at 5'6" the lowest I was happened to be 87lbs....now I'm usually in the 90's. It's really the worst thing to have...you really have no life. You are happy when you feel slim, but then again your head is warped so you really can't ever feel thin enough. It's like the mirror becomes some crazy funhouse mirror and you can't see what others see. You feel sickly all the time too and your heart hurts...it's not fun. Being told your beautiful or should be a model is not worth the time obsessing over food and exercise, I never set out to be this way....it was more of a depression and wanting to dissapear turned obsession thing. i would rather be able to live each day to the full and an eating disorder keeps you caged from ever doing that because you are restricting what happy humans need, food. So to anyone who would ever want to starve themselves to any low low weight, you will end up miserable and alone by pushing away every concerned person in your life..or never having time for a life because you'd rather be exercising. In the past 6 years the only time my eating disorder left me and i even ate normal and stayed 98 which was weird was when i lived in Germany and got to walk everywhere and ride bikes and know I could indulge and still look great because i was so active just getting around in my day to day life.




