Julien Hug's Suicide Note Read Aloud at Funeral
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Former Bachelorette contestant Julien Hug was laid to rest in San Diego, Calif. Friday.
The restaurateur took his own life Nov. 3 with a self-inflicted gunshot wound; his body was found off a remote highway in the Southern California desert that same day.
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According to E! News, hundreds of friends and family members gathered to mourn the loss of Julien, 35, at the Village Church in Rancho Santa Fe, Calif.
"He was depressed and struggling, and nobody knew," his grieving father Bertrand Hug told UsMagazine.com last week. "He couldn't find his way."
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RadarOnline reports Julien's suicide note, addressed to his parents, was read aloud at the funeral.
"I'm sorry to have to do this to you. I love you both tremendously. You two are the best parents," he wrote. "I've suffered from severe depression for years. I feel awful and don't know how to cope. If life's not enjoyable, why stick around?"
Hug's girlfriend, Jennifer Bell, also spoke at the memorial service.
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"I will miss every night where we would lie in bed and before he went to sleep he would whisper in my ear and say I love you," she said.
Julien, who vied for Jillian Harris' heart on The Bachelorette in 2009, was known as an adventurer and a thrill seeker by his former castmates.
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"I will always remember Julien's gentle demeanor and kind heart, which will be sadly missed," Harris told Us.
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18To Fortune McLemore I couldn't agree with you more. It's so sad that people had to commit suicide because they couldn't handle their depression. I myself have suffered depression for years because my lifestyle has been a living hell and have attempted to commit suicide, but luckily I didn't have the guts to go through with it. It's a shame about Julien but now he's in a much better place and won't have to suffer anymore. As for Rose Trinity, your the one who's being selfish! You obviously don't understand about people's depression so don't give us any of your BS! "You can't say anything nice don't say anything at all!"
It's no wonder; On the 2nd episode when he got eliminated he quoted to Jillian in another language, I don't know if it's Italian or French he said "until we meet again." So So sad.. ;(
To Rose Trinity: anyone who says suicide is a selfish form of dying has clearly never seen anyone who is truly suicidal. Someone who is truly suicidal is not thinking straight, at least according to other peoples' standards. But they do not commit suicide because of selfishness. They simply see no other way out. My mother was like that. We tried to help her, but to no avail. And as far as saying someone "should" be "brave enough" to live, sometimes people with severe depression do not have the energy it takes to do that. I don't normally tell people they don't know what they're talking about, but you don't this time.
How can any of you who say such ugly things about someone who is no longer with us. You have no idea what is like, so shut your trap and show some respect. Obviously your mother didn't teach you any manners. Some people are just shameless. Sometimes loving someone doesn't make everything better. Depression is an ugly disease and I don't wish upon anyone, not even Kevin Michael McIntosh.
this is sooooo sad, depression is a bad thing, rip :(
To Irene Martin: Thank you for stating it so well.... All of us who have lived through it, if we are lucky enough to find the right doctors and the right medicines only want to tell others: DO NOT GIVE UP - IT CAN GET BETTER - PLEASE BELIEVE
If you can't say something nice about the deceased then keep your mouth shut Unless you've walked in another person's shoes then don't be so quick to judge. After living with Major Depression from childhood I found a doctor 3 years ago they knew to give me 2 anti-depressants. At 74 my life is wonderful as I never knew anyone could help me to be happy & not depressed. Major depression is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain. Anyone depressed more than 2 weeks should see a psychiatric not a PCP. Remember you didn't get depressed overnight so don't expect an instance relief. It took me 6 months of med checks and increasing meds. Suicide? It's very discouraging when no one can help you and the depression just won't go away no matter how hard a person tries to get better. Please go to as many doctors as it takes to find one that can and will help you. Please don't give up. I did when I was very young & with a couple of shocks the doctor brought me back. Please don't give up. There are many people that love and care about you. Call 1 800 SUICIDE when you need someone to talk with. By reading this young man's note maybe the parents wanted his friends & loved to understand better what he had been going through & why he felt he couldn't go on. There are 5 stages of grief & I'm sure his note will help in the healing process for his loved ones and friends. For anyone grieving over a loss there is a group called SOS which stands for Survivors of Suicide. They will help you through your loss as they understand your grief and heartbreak. My most heartfelt sympathy for his family and friends.
Suicide is such a selfish form of dying, if you're brave enough to kill yourself you should be brave enough to live!
Oh, so sorry I blew my head off. I would love to work in a Posh SD restaurant and have a $%^&load of money. I have been through some stuff and I know it can always be worse. How selfish can you be? Maybe you can send be some of your money or fame. Oh, your dead. Good call, I love you so much I will shoot myself. What a loser.
I'm sure there were a few things that were omitted. I was there and it was done very tastefully! We will miss you Julien, God rest his soul!
so sad.
so sad.
Amanda, I doubt if the family would do something that Julien's mother would not want done. And Natasha is right, anything that draws attention to the depression epidemic is a good thing, because something like this serves as a warning that depression must be taken seriously; otherwise, it can have tragic consequences.
ugh is nothing sacred? Isn't a suicide note private? for the family and them alone? Gah horrifying. I'm sure what his mom needs is to see his final words splashed all over trashy magazines. Horrifying
I was a little surprised about this. But after thinking about it, I'd say the decision to do this would have to rest with the family. My mother committed suicide when I was 12, and we didn't read her note at the funeral. I think that may have been because it really didn't occur to any of us, but perhaps Julien Hug's family gave a lot more thought to it than we did. I hope everyone will respect his family's decision, whether they agree with it or not.
elsa...stfu
From someone who has suffered from severe depression and who has attempted suicide.. I think it is good that it was read at his funeral. Enlighten a few people about suicide and it's seriousness.
why read it aloud?