Kim Richards is facing her demons.
In the third and final installment of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills reunion Monday, the 47-year-old explained her erratic behavior on the Bravo series.
"I'm an alcoholic," Richards told host Andy Cohen. "I have so much guilt and shame for my behavior and what I did. And then I drank to cover the guilt and shame."
Richards completed her third stint in rehab in January. "I'm a person that has done it and relapsed and done it. But at least I'm trying," the former child star said. "I felt off. I just didn't like me anymore and I couldn't look at myself in the mirror anymore."
Watching The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills was too much for Richards to bear.
"When I first started the season, I was still not drinking and you could see my confidence level. And then you could see just from my behavior when I lost my confidence and started drinking," she said. "I could not watch the show when I saw that behavior coming out of myself because I was so ashamed of what I'd done."
Richards then agreed to watch footage from one of the final episodes, where she appeared intoxicated while scrounging around for her belongings on the bathroom floor.
"I don't know what the heck is going on there, but I felt bad for her," Richards said. "It's just sad. The voice wasn't mine, the mannerisms weren't mine. It just wasn't me."
The Bravo star is determined to stay sober this time around. "I just really want this," she explained. "I'll work really hard for it every day."
