“I’m up at 4 a.m., pumping and delirious, hiding in my daughter's closet because if she sees I snuck out of her bed, she will start to cry AND I think she gave me a cold so I figure no better time to write a #StraightUp than now!,” the Keeping Up With the Kardashians star, who welcomed her second child, Saint, this past December, shared. “My mom would always say, about having kids: ‘One is like one, and two are like twenty.’ I never really understood that until now.”
The Selfish author, 35, continued that she “expected it to be different,” but never thought it would be so difficult.
“Wow, it really is so hard!” North West’s mom wrote. “When I had North, all I did was feed and sleep. This time around, I get no sleep. Every waking second that I'm not with the baby, I'm with North. I actually think the harder parts aren't with the newborn but with the toddler! I feel like I go into overdrive to give my daughter attention and make her feel loved.”
That said, Kardashian is thankful for her husband — and her niece!
“Kanye is super helpful, taking North out to dinners (just them!), and I'm so lucky North looks up to Penelope a lot. She also has a baby brother so she gives North the best advice,” she revealed of sister Kourtney’s 3-year-old daughter and her baby boy, Reign. “I have the cutest video of P giving North a heart to heart about being a good big sister.”
The social media maven has been livestreaming for fans since giving birth to Saint in December, but is set to make her first public appearance at Yeezy’s fashion show on Thursday, February 11.
“I’ve attempted to work a few times or enjoy our Christmas Eve party, but it's definitely been challenging feeding the baby in between getting myself ready and getting my daughter ready. Being late and running behind gives me anxiety, but I know we will soon get into the perfect groove and just figure it out,” she concluded. “My mom did, my sister did—and I will, too.”
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