These days, singer Christina Aguilera is a happy wife (to Jordan Bratman) and mom (to 2-year-old son Max).
One person not in her life? Her estranged father Fausto Aguilera. Their relationship, Aguilera tells Latina magazine, is "pretty nonexistent. I'm in a place in my life where I just don't see a reason for it."
The pop star has said that Fausto, a former U.S. Army Sergeant, was emotionally and physically abusive; he and her mom, Shelly Kearns, split when Christina was just seven, and she rarely saw him after that.
"To remember the chaos that [my mother] went through, the abuse, I don't know how she did it," Aguilera, 29, tells Latina. "But it's amazing how much you can trick your mind into surviving when you have to."
"There's always room for forgiveness," the "Not Myself Tonight" songstress adds. "And I do forgive–but you grow up and make choices for your family."
In 1999 — when Aguilera first became a teen pop rival to Britney Spears — she reunited with Fausto after 12 years following an NYC concert. "We spoke for the first time in a long while. Really, he's a stranger to me," she told Rolling Stone at the time. "He's apologized," she added. "I think he had a lot of guilt."
Things are infinitely better with Bratman, whom she married in 2005. "Jordy was the calm in the storm when everybody else was driving me crazy," she tells Latina.
"I had a lot of older people around me who were conniving–and these people do that so you cling to them. He was the person who reached down, pulled me out and made me see reason. I'm very lucky to have him."
The June issue of Latina hits stands May 25.
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