Solange Knowles: My Insides “Split in Half” When I’m Away From My Son Julez

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Personal pep talk time. Solange Knowles went on a long Instagram rant about her busy lifestyle on Tuesday, December 15, and concluded the post with some advice to herself: "suck it up bissh."

The "Losing You" singer, 29, shared a photo of herself sprawled atop a bed with her eyes closed as rays of sunshine seep through a window panel. In the glamorous but makeup-free snap, she sports a mustard-yellow bandeau top and white, high-waisted culottes. "8 gigs, 8 studio sessions, 6 flights, in 2 weeks….but got to sleep in my bed for 2 nights," Knowles wrote, elaborating about life at home with her 11-year-old son, Julez, and her husband of 13 months, Alan Ferguson.

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"While I was home Julez pulled out my chair for me at lunch, said he'd sell his Nintendo so I could get a dress I loved when we … stopped by a store," the proud mom gushed. "He's phenomenal and I'm in love with [him] and it's really really hard to be away. I cried this morning because this is the longest we've been apart and my insides kind of split in half when I headed to the airport, but I'm working really really hard to finish this damn album and so grateful to have his and my hubby's support."

The producer told her followers why she uses social media and chooses to be so open about her life. "I like to use IG to create and share a little color and laughter in my life, and to see the beauty and fun in things in the midst of a lot of hard ass work and sacrifice that goes along with it. Its just not fun to show the 18 hour studio days, even when I'm sick as hell," Knowles continued. "At the end of all, just when I think I'm going to do something crazy like get a face tat or shave my eyebrows off, or spray paint my hands metallic silver and then do the home alone scream, so I have permanently have shiny handprints on my cheeks, my heart just explodes with gratitude….that this is my life."

Like her sister Beyonce, Solange continually counts her blessings. "I couldn't be more grateful, humbled, and really, God honestly, blessed," the Texas native concluded. "So suck it up bissh, and stop being emo and whiney on the insta, and get the f–k back to work…..cuz you knooooow you took this pictures weeeeeks ago when you actually were glowing like that, lol."

Knowles, indeed, got back to work on Tuesday night and attended a VIP bash at Bergdorf Goodman in NYC. Several weeks ago, she spoke to Us Weekly at Bombay Sapphire's Artisan Series Finale Party at Art Basel in Miami about spending time with her family this holiday season. "It's really just about being together, making time to be a family," she told Us. "And the rest is just like, fluff."

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