The Situation: Rehab Felt “Impossible” at First

Mike "The Situation" Sorrentino Denise Truscello/

The Situation has a brand-new situation on his hands: sobriety.

In his first sit-down interview since completing an in-patient treatment program for a prescription medication addiction, the Jersey Shore star (real name: Mike Sorrentino) tells MTV News that re-entry has been a struggle.

"Ever since I've been out, I'm not gonna lie … it's not easy," Sorrentino, 29, admits. "But at the same time, where I'm at right now, I'm at a good place. But it took a little bit to get there. In the beginning? A lot of rainy days, so to speak. A lot of rainy days."

The hard-partying star announced March 21 that he had "voluntarily taken steps" to treat his addiction, and checked into the famed Cirque Lodge in Utah. He announced April 5 that he had completed the program and was "stronger than ever."

"Your first day is detox," he told MTV. "It's not a pleasurable experience at all."

His biggest challenge in those first days: "I'd wake up and just be extremely disappointed with myself," he said. "Like, 'I can't believe I got here. How did I get here?'"

"I'm not gonna lie, it feels like you're not gonna recover," he said of the first attempts to get sober. "It feels like an impossible deed … [but] day-by-day it gets better."

And although Sorrentino admittedly became estranged from his Jersey Shore housemates — including first-time mom-to-be Snooki — he says he longs to mend fences.

"She had my back and I had her back too," he said Snooki. "We were close for a long time. … I am going to say that I am upset that we're not as close as we are today. I care about the girl, for sure."

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