Tila Tequila had a naked, ranting meltdown Wednesday night on her UStream channel, where she danced around and complained about ex-boyfriend, NFL star Shawne Merriman, whom she says beat her.
At one point, she rambled: "People call me an attention whore … or whatever … but excuse me, I'm a grown a– woman and I'm confident in myself … I think a woman's body is a beautiful thing … that's why I'm a lesbian … I was born naked … anybody who is against that is gay and in denial."
The 28-year-old MTV reality star — real name: Tila Nguyen — now says Merriman's alleged abuse prompted the bizarre video (which has been taken down).
"Well, you know, I couldn't sleep, and I started getting anxiety," she tells TMZ of why she made the tape. "I just kind of flipped out a little bit."
Tila — who is currently filing a $1.5 million lawsuit against Merriman for battery and false imprisonment — said she is "doing OK now."
"I just wish … I hope that everybody gives me a second chance to support me this time, to give me a fair chance because they didn't give me a fair chance the first time," she said.
Referring to District Attorney Bonnie Dumanis dismissing her claims, Tila then told TMZ, "They didn't even look into [my case]."
"When my case first came out, everyone was calling me a liar because [they said] if he really did beat you, you wouldn't have said anything because Rihanna never said anything [at first]," Tila went on.
"But I am not her," Tila said. "No offense to Rihanna, but because of what she did, it sends out a message to everyone … 'When you get beat or abused, keep your mouth shut.'
"So I decided I am going to come out and speak about it and fight for it…" she went on.
"What Rihanna did … her message was to say quiet," Tila said, "and that's not OK."
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