Eva Longoria: "I Want to Cry" Every Time I Talk About Divorce

Eva Longoria isn't afraid to wear her heart on her sleeve.

Opening up about her November split from Tony Parker (Us Weekly broke the news of her NBA husband's inappropriate texts with another woman, Erin Barry), Longoria, who turns 36 Tuesday, is frank in the April issue of Allure magazine (via JustJared).

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"I'm kind of having to find new patterns because I'm not used to having--I'm used to always being on a plane and flying to a basketball game," admits the ex-basketball wife. "It's been -- every time I talk about it, I want to cry." 

"It's been hard. Very hard. I'm just trying to get through it as gracefully as possible without any drama," the Desperate Housewives star confesses.

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One bright spot? Her fledgling new romance with Eduardo Cruz, Penelope Cruz's brother, with whom she has recently stepped out.

Still, Longoria stays mum on that development, saying simply, "I'm in a transition stage, settling into a new routine, and I welcome it."

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Sometimes, Longoria regrets over-sharing in interviews. "It's hard for me to censor myself, because I like to be honest and free and say exactly what I'm thinking or feeling," she admits.

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