Not so dark anymore. All Trista Sutter wanted to do was to raise a family once she married Ryan Sutter in 2003, but that journey proved to be much harder than she first anticipated. The Bachelorette alum opened up about her two-year infertility struggle to Fox411 on Wednesday, Feb. 25.
The reality star revealed her heartbreaking past while promoting her upcoming book "Happily Ever After: The Life Changing Power of a Grateful Heart."
"I talk about in the book how we struggled with infertility for almost two years. I always wanted to be a mom, it was always my dream and although I wanted to be a career person for a very long time, overplaying that at all times was to become a mother," Sutter, 42, said.
"When you get married you believe, ‘Okay, the next natural thing is to have babies.’ When that doesn’t happen you start to question your relationship, you start to question yourself, even God."
"It’s a very difficult thing to not be able to do anything about making a dream of yours come true and questioning whether something is wrong with you," she continued. "So that was definitely a dark time in my life."
Trista's struggles eventually ended when she and Ryan, 40 — who wed in 2003 — welcomed son Max in July 2007. Two years later, their luck continued when Trista gave birth to daughter Blakesley.
The lovebirds first met during the first season of The Bachelorette in 2003 — something their children still have no clue about.
"It’s completely weird. And people lately have been asking a lot, because the children are getting older, whether or not we’ve told them how we met. We haven’t yet because they just wouldn’t get it," Trista admitted to Fox411.
"Of course we’ll tell them. It’s nothing we want to hide or even can hide if we wanted to," she added. "All they have to do is Google. I’m excited to tell them. It’s fun we actually have the moment we got engaged on film. We have our entire wedding on television. And that’s really special."