November 21, 2011, was definitely a low point for Mob Wives star Renee Graziano. First, her ex-husband Hector "Junior" Pagan (with whom she'd recently reconciled) turned himself over to authorities for armed robbery and brandishing a weapon in a 2009 incident; hours later, her dad, reputed crime boss Anthony "TG" Graziano, was arrested for extortion and other charges.
As it turned out, Pagan, 46, had actually made deal with the Feds to avoid jail time: Wearing a wire while speaking with his former father-in-law, he helped the DEA nab "TG," who's currently behind bars.
"It literally felt like somebody broke my chest, took my heart and pulled it out of my body," Renee, 42, admits to Us Weekly of Pagan's shocking betrayal in this exclusive video. "Just horrible."
She and Pagan (who is now reportedly in the witness protection program) share son AJ, 17. "I trusted my life with" Pagan, she says as she breaks down in tears. The tough reality star admits she "was suicidal" in the aftermath of the arrests and had a "nervous breakdown" Jan. 27.
"I actually have found forgiveness," Graziano says, fighting back tears. "If i don't forgive, you'll have hate . . . Forgive, but never forget."
Watch Graziano's emotional interview now -- and pick up the new Us Weekly for more of our exclusive sit-down.
The story unfolds on VH1 March 25 and April 1 at 8 p.m.