The finale of Tori Spelling's Lifetime reality show, True Tori, left a lot of issues in her marriage to Dean McDermott unresolved. So for a reunion special on Tuesday, June 3, the couple sat down with interviewer Brooke Anderson to talk about the current state of affairs between them and address any lingering questions.
Asked why she didn't just leave McDermott when she first found out he had cheated with 28-year-old Emily Goodhand, the former Beverly Hills, 90210 star, 41, said she had to consider what was best not just for her but also for her four children. "There's a family, and there's a love," she explained. "We have four kids together... There's four other little beings that you have to account for."'
Beyond that, Spelling said, she and the Chopped Canada host have a history that she couldn't easily dismiss. "I'm also in love with him," she admitted.
That said, if she finds out there were other women besides Goodhand, their marriage is effectively over. "If he says there are others, I feel like that makes my decision for me—I have to leave," she told Anderson. She hasn't asked yet, she added, because she's "afraid," and her "heart wants to try to work this out."
The reality TV star also spoke with Anderson about the effect of the affair—and True Tori—on her children. "I want them to watch this show when they're adults," she said. "I want to be able to be honest with them, and I hope to show them this and talk about this, and say we made it through...I hope to be able to tell them about a happy ending." She added later, "I'm proud of the woman I've become, and I want them to see that."
McDermott, for his part, was remorseful throughout his interview with Anderson. Asked how he's doing since his revelation earlier in the season that he contemplated suicide, he replied, "I know today I'm sober. I'm in love with my wife. We're together. I love my children. And I'm not going to do anything to jeopardize that."
As for rumors that the entire cheating scandal was fabricated as a publicity stunt, and Goodhand isn't a real person? "I wish she didn't exist," Spelling said. "I wish it hadn't happened. I don't know who would fake something to have this happen to your life. My family was, and still is, in complete devastation over this. I wouldn't wish this on anyone."