“‘Laying in bed next to my peacefully sleeping wife. I can hear my daughter snoozing away through the monitor in her room. My dog is cuddled up on the floor next to me…’ Dr. Oz says, quoting Baltierra’s tweet. “It sounds so beautiful, picturesque. And then you go on to say, ‘and yet I feel so empty…so alone #TheCruelIronyofLife.’”
While Lowell, 26, initially thought she had done something wrong, the MTV star quickly realized that Baltierra’s words had nothing to do with her.
“Well I woke up in the morning and I was hanging out with Nova and he was sleeping. Then, I read it on Twitter and instantly my first reaction goes to my trauma of like ‘What did I do?’” the MTV star explained. “Then, I was like no. I talk to myself, that’s my trauma stuff. And then I’m automatically like it has nothing to do with you, just go in there and ask, “Is there anything I can do for you? Is there anything you need?’”
Lowell and Baltierra, 26, tied the knot in 2015 after several years of dating. The duo, who share 3-year-old daughter Novalee Reign, have been open about their mental health issues over the years. Most recently, Lowell revealed during season 7 of Teen Mom OG that she had suicidal thoughts after suffering a miscarriage.
“I mean I’m really glad that I’m like super self-aware because I think a lot of people aren’t,” Lowell said, after watching a clip from the Teen Mom OG finale, in which she worries about Baltierra filing for divorce amid her struggles. “But as soon as I noticed that I was picturing myself driving into the ditch and hitting a pole or I was walking around my bedroom one day and there was a belt and I’m like I could use that and literally it could be over with. I’m thinking of every way possible to kill myself and I know this isn’t right.”
The Conquering Chaos author sought treatment for her mental health struggles in November 2017. After returning home around the holidays, she reentered the rehab facility in January and returned home the following month.
Lowell and Baltierra are set to appear on The Dr. Oz Show on Thursday, July 12. Check your local listings for air times.
If you or someone you know is in emotional distress or considering suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
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