Let her breathe. Kelly Osbourne appeared on the Today show, Monday, Nov. 10, where she discussed her late friend and Fashion Police co-host Joan Rivers, along with the most irritating question she's endured since Rivers' death in September.
"I can't lie and say that I'm amazing," Osbourne admitted of coping with Rivers' tragic passing. "It's something, to be honest with you, I really don't like talking about because I haven't been able to mourn and grieve the way that I want to."
Following the comic's death on Sept. 4, Osbourne took to her Facebook page to share her heartbreak with fans. "Not only was she my boss, she was and will always be my teacher, therapist, closest friend, inspiration and the grandmother I ever knew," the designer wrote at the time. "She was family and I will never forget her."
Osbourne also later got a bumblebee tattoo in honor of Rivers, explaining to fans why she chose the insect. "In honor of you @joanrivers…'If you looked at aerodynamics, at science, the bumble bee should not be able to fly. Physically, it was just not anatomically equipped to soar. Yet it did, defying gravity, defying logic. The bee was a creature that defied and beat the odds, a miracle,'" Osbourne wrote. "Thank you for being my miracle @joanrivers."
The two grew close while comically critiquing celebrities' red carpet fashions on the E! show. Recently, Osbourne admitted that she's become increasingly frustrated after fielding the same question regarding the future of Fashion Police. "Not one person that I have seen, or [who has] walked up to me or spoken to me since the day she passed has … the first thing that comes out of their mouth is 'Who's replacing Joan?'" Osbourne said on the Today show. "And I have actually started to enter my angry phase, so it's not been fun."
Al Roker then mentioned that Rivers was indeed, irreplaceable, which prompted Osbourne to tear up. "Can we please move on so I don't cry on morning TV?" asked the star.
Still, Osbourne told the Today show hosts that there is never a day that passes without thinking about her late great pal. "I kind of live my life right now by: What would Joan do?" she said. "She'd come back from the grave, slap me in the face and tell me to go back if I didn't do it."