Amber Portwood's emotional journey is far from over.
Less than six weeks after the 21-year-old checked out of a Malibu rehab facility, the Teen Mom star was rushed to the hospital Wednesday after she suffered a severe panic attack. "I couldn't breathe and I passed out," she tells E! News. "I stopped breathing."
Despite being treated for depression and anger management in Malibu, Portwood admits she still hasn't found inner peace. "Honestly, I feel like I did two months ago. I'm still suicidal," she says. "I'm f-cking depressed. My family's not together."
Portword also slammed a recent tabloid report that claimed she rarely visits her 2-year-old daughter Leah with ex Gary Shirley.
"What hurts me the most is when people believe the lies about me," she explains. "The only reason I am letting Gary have custody of Leah right now is to keep CPS off our backs. I see Leah whenever I can. I have stipulations as to when I can and can't see her."
Fortunately, Portwood's mother has been a source of comfort over the past few months. "My mom knows everything that's going on in my life right now," she tells E! News. "We're great."
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