Tori Spelling still isn’t ready for husband Dean McDermott to come home. The former Beverly Hills, 90210 actress welcomed viewers into her first therapy session with her unfaithful husband in the premiere episode of her new Lifetime reality series, True Tori on Tuesday, April 22.
The new show opened with the 40-year-old explaining to the camera her decision to tell her story—and her initial disbelief over McDermott's betrayal. "I didn't think for a second that it was true," she said of early rumors.
However, when she confronted McDermott, she observed, "His right eyebrow was shaking up and down … and I said, 'I've never seen your eyebrow shake before."
Spelling's worst nightmare came true days before Us Weekly published the story of McDermott’s Toronto fling with Emily Goodhand, when he confirmed the story in private.
As previously reported, McDermott then voluntarily checked himself in to treatment the following day back in late December 2013, leaving her and the children to spend Christmas alone.
"I know he's my soulmate. I know he's the love of my life. I also know he broke my heart," Spelling admitted in their joint therapy session, in which she rejected a hug from her husband during their first meeting.
The mother to Liam, Stella, Finn and Hattie said she still "loves him," but also recognized, "this might not have a happy ending."
The therapist treating McDermott explained that his rehab stay was for "addiction, depression and the fall out of his affair." McDermott, the therapist added, has been "lying his whole life."
"I'm so scared we won’t grow old together," a tearful Spelling said. "That's my biggest fear."
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