Katy Perry on Russell Brand Divorce: I Felt "Punched," "Kicked," "Was in Bed for Two Weeks"

Celebrity News Oct. 21, 2013 AT 6:00PM
Katy Perry and Russell Brand in Dec 2011 Katy Perry says she was so devastated after her 2011 split from Russell Brand that she stayed "in bed for two weeks" and felt like she'd been "punched in the face" Credit: Jason Merritt/Getty Images

Katy Perry says she's not the type of person who believes that what doesn't kill you always makes you stronger. The superstar certainly didn't feel particularly powerful in the midst of her surprise divorce from ex-husband Russell Brand. Speaking candidly in a new interview with the U.K.'s Sunday Times, the "Walking on Air" singer, 28, reveals she took quite an emotional beating after her 2011 split from the British comedian.

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"I was in bed for about two weeks," Perry admits to the paper. "I was pretty f--ked, yes. It hurt a lot -- I got a good knock." (Brand blindsided his then-wife with divorce papers in December 2011 after 14 months of marriage. They finalized their split in February 2012.)

The star -- now dating fellow musician John Mayer -- eventually channeled that pain into her new album, Prism. But it wasn't easy.

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"What I wanted to call this record at first was Adult Reality, because Teenage Dream was me so high on that cotton-candy cloud, and then it's like I got punched in the face and kicked down the stairs a couple of times," she tells the Sunday Times. "I had to face the reality that things are not always on cloud nine. "

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It was that revelation that inspired Perry to write "By the Grace of God," in which she sings about "lying on the bathroom floor" and wanting to give up on life. "The song is very autobiographical," she notes. "I was down and out, I'd lost hope, all of my confidence had been shattered."

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"Unfortunately, although I had a lot of outward self-identity, I didn't have the inner kind, I hadn't built that up," she explains. "My self-worth was in someone else's hands, which is never a good idea, because it can be taken from you at any time. And it was, and it was shattered."

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These days, Perry is feeling stronger and more confident -- hence the hit song "Roar." Though she admits she writes "very vulnerably," she's not worried about people "trying to find [the] little cracks" in her armor. "I have them, and I'm not afraid of them," she tells the Sunday Times.

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