Tila Tequila: I "Scream Out at Night" for Casey Johnson
Tila Tequila is losing sleep over the death of her fiancee Casey Johnson.
"I would like to see her right now. Right now. But if that's not going to happen, then I hope she hears me when I scream out for her at night when I can't sleep," Tequila, 28, tells Chaunce Hayden in Steppin' Out magazine.
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"The bed is so empty without my wife and our dogs," Tequila goes on.
Tequila says she and Johnson, 30, who was found dead on Jan. 4, "were and still are very much in love. It wasn't love like either of us had ever experienced before. That is why we got engaged so fast.
"We wanted to hurry up and start the next chapter of our lives together. Just me, her, Ava, our 3 dogs, and another little one on the way," adds Tequila, who has been hinting she's pregnant on Twitter. (She also said Wednesday that she’s going to seek custody of Casey's adopted daughter, Ava.)
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Tequila says she and Johnson "became domesticated" and "were so happy happy that we never left the bedroom. That was our favorite hang out spot. My bedroom and my Jacuzzi."
"We were everything that both of us ever needed. Each other," she goes on.
Tequila says she's not giving back the 17-carat engagement ring Johnson gave her.
"I have it and will never let anyone take it away from me. That is something my wife gave to me to promise our courtship together for the rest of our lives," she says. "I was so happy. The ring is absolutely real."
She also claims that she was bumped from appearing on Larry King Live because the Johnson family "threatened to sue Larry King if I'm on his show."
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121I'm disgusted. She looks real broken up about Casey's death, doesn't she? I know if the love of my life died suddenly, I'd get all tarted up and pose for magazines. She's mucking around in a family's misery and she needs to stop. And we, as the public, need to stop reading and talking about her, it's giving her the attention that she is obviously craving. She's planning to seek custody? Are you kidding me? No court anywhere would give her the child, she has no legal right to her. She wasn't the "other mom". She was the mom's attention-starved girlfriend. Please go away Tila Tequila.
the girl is a complete nut job... just picked up a copy of steppin out magazine on ebay
This photo is airbrushed beyond recognition. She cried because she realized the diamond engagement ring was a fake and she's not getting her claws into the Johnson & Johnson billions.
This photo is airbrushed beyond recognition. She cried because she realized the diamond engagement ring was a fake and she's not getting her claws into the Johnson & Johnson billions.
Ugh! Apparently she believes Twitter was made just for her. Tila Loved her $$$, that's all she misses.
can we all just forget about tila. I thought her 15 mins of fame should have ended already. She has nothing to offer just like the kardashians
believing that someone else's love for someone else is real is pointless because you are not her. unless you are living Tila's life how do you know what's real or not real? because this nutcase does anything for publicity, it's hard to know if her screams are for real or for publicity. in any case, i woudn't pay attention to her. where's her family? and btw, Twitter is lame; anyone who uses it is just the same. Vocalize your thoughts person to person, to your closest friends, not a bunch of strangers who have boring lives and have nothing else better to do than read her self-absorbed blogs. And no, I have never read one word and don't plan to.
she says "wife" in the article. this tramp wasn't even married to her. IDIOT.
I experienced a true love. An intense feelings full of love that you will feel once in a lifetime. I believe Casey Johnson and Tila Tequila that their love for each other was real. Usually the first month of a relationship is intense full of love and feel so happy. I know because it happened to me. Casey and Tila were so much in love that's why they're engaged and they just wanted the whole world to know. Anyone who doesn't want to believe about love just wait until you will feel the greatest feelings you will ever had with a person.
yeah she's really grieving. that's why she has time for photo shoots. Me Me Me focus on Me Me Me. Gooooo Awaaaaay! Enough of this loony bin. she's famous for nothing except a stupid reality show. ALL FAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
All the Tila defenders are morons. Who cares about this trashy fake. Everything about her is fake, including her engagement. She'll do anything for publicity. Aaaawwww and ppl feel sorry for her. Absolute joke. Tila needs to go away. She's a bad influence and negative role model. Society does not need to look up to such sleazy trash.
nope, never googled Tila. I clicked on US magazine. u are the hypocrite and u have a foul mouth. its obvious u have a shriveled heart with no compassion or empathy. look at you. HYPOCRITE. Seems like trashy Tila is your role model. Way to go Mr. Smarty pants.
Casey Johnson are very rich and Casey was diabetic and they know she was on drugs. Why the parents did not hire somebody to take care of Casey or somebody to check her out from time to time or everyday? Casey died like nobody loves her aside the love of Tila. It seems like only Tila cares for her. My family & my boyfriend & my best friend freaks out got nervous when they were not able to reach me in just one day. Just one day they started to look for me already. Casey wasn't around with anybody since Dec. 29 so what's this mean it's only one thing nobody cares for her.
Ked- Apparently you cared too, to google in on Tila Tequila and dedicating yourself to comment on this subject. So you just proved that you do care, doesn't have to be in a supportive ways in her life. But you showed that you cared enough in whats going on in Tila's life. Hypocrite
If your loved one die, and someone is going to be rude about it and was trying to talk for you and act like they knew how it was between you and your deceased loved one. You will too have rage and defend yourself as much as you can. There's absolutely probably no one that Tila could grieve to about Casey because everyone was being ignorant. So all she has is herself in her home. And it seems to be the drama really happens over the internet. Apparently she could grieve by twitter and defending herself because millions of people are always checking up on her blogs anyways. So save yourself and have a cup of shut the f* up.
I experienced what is like to be in love. A love that u can feel once in a lifetime. I know the love that Casey Johnson and Tila Tequila is true and intense that's why they're engaged. Usually the first month of relationship is the most intense love that you will feel. I felt this kind of love so I believe Casey & Tila's love fo each other is real. The parents of Casey are not a good parents no matter what they should always be there for Casey. What kind of parents are they. If you can't reach your daughter on New Year's Day the parents should look for her right away. Why casey's body found on Jan.4?
Moralspolice -- nobody cares about attention-worshipping media hogger Tila and why shoud anyone care about what you have to say? you act like you're superior to everyone else. blowhards -- nice vocabulary. now go eat your own words.
Amazing how judgmental folks are when typing anonymously. You "morals police" decide who can grieve & just how they can grieve according to your standards. People grieve in all kinds of ways- -you have no right to dictate how this woman expresses her pain. You also don't decide how long it takes for one person to fall in love with another. During WWII, many servicemen married women they had just met & they stayed married for decades. These 2 women didn't have the legal option to marry; so maybe they forged their own type of union without legal sanction. How is this hurting any of you? We have no real idea of the true motivations of most people who marry- -all we know is what they tell us. How was it this woman's responsibility to get another adult off of drugs? Substance abusers have to get themselves off of drugs for themselves, not to please others; or the cure does NOT take. Casey Johnson was responsible for her own drug problems and only Casey Johnson could change that, if she chose to do so. And btw, neither branch of the Johnson family is known as being full of paragons of virtue. Ask people-in-the-know in certain circles from central New Jersey & you'll get an earful. Just because they have money doesn't make them any better than this woman. Tila & Casey appear to have been 2 lost souls living in fame's fishbowl who happened to find & cling to one another for a short time. Whether they were good or bad for one another in the long run was for them to determine- - and not within the purview of a bunch of blowhards with Internet access; and shriveled hearts from which compassion and empathy has long fled.
If they were always in the bedroom, then who was taking care of the child? And who is the supposed baby daddy of the child she is supposedly expecting? Shes so gross and its not like she even has a brain. I mean at least some of the women who pose nude have a brain, she certainly does not. I wouldnt have wanted her at my childs funeral either, making a mockery of it and acting fake. She loved Ms. Johnsons money, not her. The only one I feel sorry for is the child for having to live with 2 fake, weird, disgusting bit(hes
She just love the attention! Tila needs to go do something with her life! She's working on everybody's nerves!