Bachelorette's Jillian Harris says she cries over reports that her fiance, Ed Swiderski, slept with one woman and tried to bed another days after proposing to her on national TV.
"I'll admit, I was tearing up with my dad this morning," Harris, 29, told The Province newspaper Thursday. "I would never do anything mean-spirited in my life. I'll never say a mean thing about one of those girls even though I'm very confused why they would do something like this.... I just don't really get it, but that's part of what I signed up for and I just need to hold on tight and get through it."
Harris still denies that Swiderski was two-timing her with Lindsey Johnson and Bethany Steffen, as both women exclusively reveal in excruciating detail in the newest issue of Us Weekly (on stands now).
"It's actually very sad for me and for Ed and I'm sure for the two girls involved, who I'm sure are very regretful for saying these things that aren't true," she says.
Harris swears she was "in the loop like you would not believe" about Swiderski's relationship with Johnson and Steffen, who she writes off as ex girlfriends who still have feelings for him. (Us Weekly reports that Johnson slept with Swiderski a week after he proposed to Harris, and Swiderski attempted to bed Steffen, texting her: "Bring beer and condoms!")
Swiderski is "so open," Harris swears. "Of course he's had exes. I'm very aware of that. I think there were definitely some feelings there when he left for the show ... and that's human nature and I understand that.
"I feel very sorry for the girls who are broken-hearted, because I know how that feels," continues Harris, who was dumped by Jason Mesnick on Season 13 of The Bachelor. "The way that they have dealt with it, to bring up things from the past that don't apply to my relationship with Ed, it's making them, I believe, look a little bit foolish...." she goes on.
Despite admitting tears, Harris says Swiderski's dalliances are "not important to [her]." She says she still plans to move to Chicago next month to be closer to her fiance.
"I am not affected by this at all," she says. "We really plan on trying to get out of the limelight and trying to get on with our lives. It's been a hard couple of days but ... it only made us stronger and it's only made us communicate with each other more.
"We're doing fine," continues the Vancouver-based restaurateur. "It's hard because I'm just a regular Canadian girl."