Lindsay Lohan says Samantha Ronson was the first woman she's been attracted to.
"I never really thought about women before. It kind of just happened with Samantha," Lohan, 23, tells the UK Sun of her ex-girlfriend, whom she split from last April. "It surprised me."
Lohan says she's "still in touch" with Ronson because they live in the same Los Angeles apartment building. "We love each other. We might reconcile the relationship, maybe. I don't know," she says.
The actress — who came clean about dabbling in cocaine
Monday — continues, "If I wasn't with Samantha, I would probably be with a boy next. She's the only woman I've been attracted to."
Lohan says "it was a big deal" going public with her relationship with Ronson.
"I've never had a relationship as public as that, especially being with a girl for the first time," she says. "That was really scary for me. But I didn't care because I love her."
She blames Ronson's family for driving a wedge between them. (At the time of their split, Us Weekly reported the family kept Lohan away from Charlotte Ronson's fashion show after party in Los Angeles.)
"I think Samantha was growing as a celebrity and a musician and I think that might have scared her family," Lohan reasons. "But I've always been her biggest supporter and, yeah, I love her. All the fighting stuff was just because all her friends had got involved and made me an outcast, which wasn't fair to Samantha. I think it was a jealousy thing in terms of her becoming more famous than the rest of them."
As for photos that showed Lohan looking rough after spending time with Ronson, she says, "Maybe I was upset, or we had a tiff about something stupid. A picture can tell a thousand different words and lies. They want the negative, they want the drama. They want to say, 'Oh Lindsay's distraught, here we go again, should Sam leave?'"
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