The Bachelorette alum, 31 — who welcomed daughter Molly last month with fiancé Kevin Manno — revealed in her heartfelt note that she recently had “two breakdowns,” but is beyond excited about her life as a new mom.
“Today is Molly’s 1 month birthday! I can’t believe it,” Fedotowsky wrote on Saturday. “Some nights have felt long, but overall the month has flown by. As Kevin put it this morning, she’s 1/12th of the way to a year old! Ha! We already feel like she’s growing up too fast.”
She continued, “This month has been a mix of emotions. Mostly happy ones, but some tears too — both Molly’s and mine. The first couple weeks were exhausting but I was running on adrenaline so I really felt like I was on cloud nine. They were the most exciting and wonderful weeks of my life. My first two weeks as a mom and the first two weeks of our family of four (we still think of our poochie Owen as our first child). I will always remember those first couple weeks as some of the happiest moments of my life!”
The TV personality went on to explain that the third week as a mother was the most difficult yet because Molly was “cluster feeding a lot and she was waking up every 1.5-2 hours to feed during the night.”
“One night I broke down in tears over vaccinations,” Fedotowsky revealed in her post. “I just wish there was a ‘right’ answer when it comes to when we should do them. I cried my eyes out to Kevin while watching Molly sleep because I just wanted some ‘all knowing’ doctor to tell us what to do. To tell us what’s best for Molly. Unfortunately that almighty doctor doesn’t exist.”
Just one day later, the former E! News correspondent had a second breakdown — this time, about the couple’s dog.
“I love Owen more than I can explain and having Molly around has been a huge adjustment for him,” she wrote. “He loves his sister so much! Really. It’s adorable how he ALWAYS has to be next to her. … That said, I can tell he misses getting all our attention. It breaks my heart when he looks at me with his puppy dog eyes while I’m feeding Molly and I can’t go to him. I have to put Molly first and to be honest it’s hard sometimes. Not because I don’t want to completely care for and love on Molly, but because I want to give Owen the same attention I used to but can’t.”
Thankfully, Fedotowsky says she “hasn’t cried” since those two nights and is now “super happy.”
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