Keltie Knight recalled experiencing suicidal ideation last year while “searching” for happiness.
“I had access to the best in the business,” Knight, 44, said during the Wednesday, July 15 episode of Today with Jenna & Sheinelle. “The best gurus, the best books, and I just couldn’t find it.”
The TV personality said she had a “come to Jesus moment last fall” during a particularly depressive episode.
“I was on a trip [and] I thought about taking my own life,” Knight said. “I was unsure how to move forward, and I’ve done so much work in the past year that only now I feel comfortable.”
Knight decided “to be honest” about her experience because she wants women to know that she’ll “probably never get to the top of the mountain of happiness,” despite trying.
Knight further discussed her past in an article published via her Substack on Wednesday. She called it “the biggest kelt-down of my life.” (Listeners of Knight’s “LadyGang” podcast know that a kelt-down is another way of saying meltdown.)
“It involved falling into a depressive episode that included suicidal ideation,” she wrote. “I don’t say this lightly, and I’m not trying to write it as a headline, but it’s the event that kicks off my new book.”
Knight’s book, The F*ck Them Theory, is set to be released on November 24.
“I keep joking that the book [is] self-help for people who are done being the bigger person, but really it’s a love letter to myself,” Knight wrote on Wednesday. “Writing this book was a way for me to get out of my own way and stop with my own bulls***, admit some really ugly things about myself, and take score on the things that really mattered.”
Knight said she’s “learned a lot” throughout the past year.
“I found a lot of ways to cope and to learn and to grow and to get a handle on what true success means to me,” she explained, noting that becoming a New York Times bestseller isn’t her goal anymore. With The F*ck Them Theory, Knight wants “to touch and impact as many people as possible.”
Knight joked to Us Weekly exclusively in September 2025 that she was “getting even more unhinged” in her next era when teasing the book.
“I have done everything right. I got all the gold stars. I got the Emmys. I’ve worked hard. We created this. I’ve worked on TV for years, and I just feel like at some point I was supposed to be an enlightened and perfect person,” she added. “It’s not possible.”
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