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Lamar Odom Talks Drug Overdose: ‘I Was Basically Just Committing Suicide’

He’s coming clean. Lamar Odom opened up about the drug overdose that nearly took his life in October 2015 during a preview clip for an upcoming episode of The Doctors, set to air on Tuesday, January 17.

“Did I feel ashamed about some of the choices I made?” he says in the video, released on Friday, January 13. “I was basically just committing suicide.” The 37-year-old athlete looks somber as he reflects on this fact.

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In a previous preview clip released in December, the former Lakers star recounted the tough period of his life that led to his wild behavior and eventual hospitalization.

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Lamar Odom attends the launch for “Unbreakable” on April 4, 2011 in Hollywood, California..

When asked what he remembers of that night, Odom replied, “Being in that damn brothel and thinking I was going to just rest a little bit. I wasn’t in a good place mentally before that incident happened. Me and my wife at the time were going through some things. I was in a dark place.”

He added, “I guess they say everything happens for a reason. I guess the reason is I’m here. I can tell the story.”

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Odom checked out of San Diego rehab earlier this month, on Thursday, January 5, following a one month stay. “He is doing so great and looking forward to the New Year,” a source told Us of his release.

The former NBA star has been struggling to stay sober since he was released from the hospital following an overdose at a Nevada brothel in October 2015; the one-month stay in rehab was one way for him to keep himself in check, a source told Us in December.

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“He went to continue making sure he stays sober and on the right path,” the insider told Us after news broke that Odom had decided to seek treatment. “It was something he chose to do. He also wanted to feel 100 percent again. He did not relapse, but felt like he wanted to get away and start fresh for the New Year.” The source told Us that Odom was determined to get back on track “for his kids.”

The preview clip also hinted at his hopes to revisit his relationship with ex-wife Khloé Kardashian. Asked by host Travis Lane Stork what he’s looking forward to going forward, Odom answers, “Um, honestly? I want my wife back.” He and Kardashian, 32, finalized their divorce in December. The Revenge Body With Khloé Kardashian host is currently dating NBA star Tristan Thompson.

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