If Shanna Moakler could turn back time, she may have said no to participating in ex-husband Travis Barker’s documentary.
“I regret a lot. I wish I didn’t do it,” Moakler, 51, shared on the Thursday, September 10, episode of iHeartRadio’s “I Do, Part 2” podcast. “I don’t know how he got me to go and do this documentary. I think it was before he was with his wife [Kourtney Kardashian]. I’m pretty sure. And I just wish I hadn’t done it because I knew in my heart I wasn’t going to be portrayed the way that I felt I deserved.”
Although Moakler hasn’t watched Travis Barker: Louder Than Fear, which premiered on Hulu in August, the bits and pieces that people have shared with her are more than enough for her to come to a conclusion.
“I just was like, ‘Yeah, that’s kind of what I thought was going to happen,’” she told podcast host Jana Kramer. “I’m a little disappointed with myself for participating.”
Barker, 50, and Moakler were married from 2004 to 2008 and share son Landon, 22, and daughter Alabama, 20.
Moakler is expected to share more about her past relationships in her upcoming memoir, Blink of an Eye. She hopes to provide a narrative that may be different from what some fans developed all the way back in 2005 when she appeared on Meet the Barkers.
“It’s not just about Travis. Travis has a couple chapters, but it’s not just about chapters,” she said. “I want this book to be one that inspires women to learn about trauma, trauma bonding, how to get over living through embarrassing things in the public eye, but more than anything, kind of finding that journey back to yourself. It’s more about inspiring women.”
During her candid interview with Kramer, 42, Moakler was also asked about being friends with your exes and their new significant others.
“Sadly the opportunity, I guess, with my exes and their particular new partners just didn’t end well with me with those people,” she said. “And so it’s just never been an option, and it’s nothing I’ve ever wanted to do.”
At the same time, she is grateful for one rule she and Barker created after their split.
“The one thing my ex and I agree on — it’s the only thing my ex and I agree on because we don’t agree on anything else — was our children. That was putting our children first,” Moakler shared. “You really need to sit down with yourself and say, ‘My priority is giving my children the healthiest and best future possible.’ At the end of the day, whether you like it or not, your child deserves to know their father. Your child deserves to know their mother. Whether you respect them or not, it’s their parent. You have to allow your children to know their other parent.”
