Kate Gosselin may have bombed on Monday night's DWTS — one judge compared her to a "shopping cart" — but she says she'll bounce back.
"I'm letting myself go and I'm diving in headfirst. Forget my insecurities — I'm just gonna have fun with it," the reality mom, 34, told RadarOnline.com in a joint interview with partner Tony Dovolani.
"My body and my brain were at war," she explained of her stiff performance. "It [was] like a whirlwind."
Gosselin says learning how to dance is more frustrating than "giving birth to sextuplets."
She built a rehearsal space in the basement of her $1.2 million Pennsylvania home.
"I do a little practice for them at night," she says of her kids. "Maddie was like, 'I'll only watch you if you don't scream this time!'" (Us Weekly once reported that Maddie snapped at her mom, "Mommy, you are mean!" after she yelled at her daughter for splashing her near a pool.)
Joked Dovolani, "I was very appreciative of this. I'm a little deaf in one ear!" (Gosselin — who was a "nervous wreck" at the show — says she screams "every time I mess up" in rehearsal.)
Gosselin wants fans to vote for her even if they "hate" her.
"But I hope that people see in me that I'm a mom like everyone else, just working to provide for my kids — I mean if you have to work, isn't this so fun?" she says.
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