Real Housewives of New York star Kelly Killoren Bensimon doesn't regret her bizarre behavior on Thursday's explosive episode of her hit Bravo show.
"Some people are like, 'You had a breakdown,' and I'm like, no, I had a breakthrough," Bensimon told New York magazine's Vulture of her histrionics on a yacht in St. John's.
Among other outbursts in the episode, Bensimon called fellow housewife Alex McCord a "vampire," threatened to "claw" the eyes out of those interrupting a phone call with her kids, and claimed a dream in which nemesis Bethenny Frankel tries to stab her to death.
The model and writer explains that she was "very anxious" about traveling to St. John's with the other housewives. "I was asked by women who don't like me at all. I always have positive expectations of people, and I always think the best, and you know, that’s my Achilles' heel, is that I'm positive and feel like people are going to be nice. But the nature of the show isn't that."
She claims that her rival housewives are "not happy I'm on the show, they're just not…I'm very sensitive, and if someone says something very rude to me over and over again, I'm human. Shoot me."
"I'm completely honest, I have a ton of integrity," Bensimon continued. "The minute I walk into the room, I create…this stagnant frenetic energy."
On last week's episode, she chided Frankel and housewife Sonja Morgan for crying, getting emotional and sharing their "feelings." She explained: "In some ways, I'm almost too real. I have two girls, and we talk about feelings 24 hours a day. But those are real-life feelings."
"Let's be honest," she added of her outbursts, "It makes for awesome TV…if they're not hating on you, you're not doing something right."
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