"I [would] think God was doing this for a reason," the reality star, 34, told Elle UK in its January 2015 "Confidence" issue. "He was saying: 'Kim, you think you're so hot, but look what I can do to you.'"
She went on to describe the experience as if somebody (or something) had possessed her. "My body just went crazy," she reflected. "After five months I swore I'd never get pregnant again. I got so huge and it felt like someone had taken over my body."
For Kardashian, finding satisfaction in her curvy physique has been a long journey. "I grew up when the body to have was the tall, slim, supermodel one, like Cindy Crawford’s. No one looked like me," she told the mag. "It’s good to break the mold and recreate one. I'm an Armenian girl, I have shape, and it turned out people liked that. That makes me feel good about myself and about other women for being so supportive. I am a confident woman, but I didn't just arrive confident—it has built over the years and that is a big part of who I am now."
Her late father, Robert Kardashian, was a big influencer in how she eventually came to accept — and embrace her figure. "When I was 13 my father wrote me a letter," Kim recalled. "I was unhappy with my body – I developed really early. Every night I would sit in the bath and cry, I prayed my boobs would stop growing. He told me I had a body not many girls have, that later it would lead to attention from men, but that the most important thing was that I was a wonderful girl and I had to understand my self worth."
As for the possibility of getting pregnant again? "I want a boy and another girl," the cover girl told the mag. "I want it to start happening straightaway. I loved being part of a huge family – and I want that for North. We'd do IVF if nothing happens, but we both want to keep trying naturally."