Married at First Sight’s Jamie Otis penned an emotional blog post on Thursday, July 14, about her miscarriage, just one day after announcing the sad news on social media.
“My heart is so heavy. There are no words to express the pain and sorrow associated with losing our baby Hehner,” the reality star, 30, wrote of her pregnancy with husband Doug Hehner that she was unable to carry to term.
Otis lamented that she was in the midst of planning a gender reveal party for the baby-to-be and was even making the Facebook event, when the couple walked into a high-risk doctor’s office. Although she had some unusual bleeding, she said that the heartbeat was going strong, the baby was still kicking and she had seen four doctors.
“Doug, my husband, and I were very optimistic going into this doctor’s appointment. Like I said, I was literally on Facebook planning our gender reveal party,” she wrote. “Until the doctor flat out said, ‘The prognosis is very poor and there is nothing you can do to help it. You have very little amniotic fluid for the baby.’ I’m a nurse so I know how important amniotic fluid is for growth and development, but I just couldn’t believe my ears.”
“How could the prognosis be so ‘poor’ when I had just seen our baby’s feet kicking and his little body bouncing around in my belly less than a week before,” she continued. "We decided I would go on bed rest, drink lots of coconut water and even more regular spring water and fight for our baby.”
Otis explained that writing and hearing feedback from others who’ve experienced the same tragic loss has helped her get through the difficult days. “Talking about my baby who I fell in love with the minute I knew his little heart was beating inside me is therapy,” she wrote. “I wish I could hold him and love on him. His little feet and hands were so precious. He was beyond adorable, even at 17 weeks.”
I was always so excited for Doctor visits because it meant I could see my little baby bouncing inside me. This was one of our last visits. I wrote a blog about losing our baby (link in bio above). My heart hurts so bad, but I cannot tell you how much it means to me to see all the love & support from you all. Thank you all so much. 💔 #babyHehner #LoveYou #OurAngel
The Bachelor alum asked for prayers and described her heartbreak over never getting the chance to meet her little one. “Please pray for Doug, me, and our family. More importantly, pray for our little baby Hehner,” she wrote. “I know he is up in heaven and I am sure he is bouncing on clouds, but selfishly I wish he was still bouncing in my belly. I’ll never get to see this Angel again on earth. He was given to us so graciously by God, and then God took him away way too early. My heart hurts so bad. Losing our baby has been the most terrible experience. I wish no one would ever have to endure this.”
Hehner also grieved about his wife’s miscarriage in an Instagram post on Wednesday, July 13. “#BabyHehner even though you could only leave us with your footprints, you will forever remain in our hearts,” he wrote. “@jamieotis and I love you! Thank you everyone for your love and support.”
The couple, who met on season 1 of Married at First Sight, announced they were expecting their first child on the Today show on July 5.
Otis and Hehner also appeared on Married at First Sight: The First Year, which followed the beginning of their life as a married couple.
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