He wasn't exactly on the Up & Up. In a new interview with the Sunday Times, Chris Martin revealed that his split from Gwyneth Paltrow, despite its amicability, really had him down in the dumps.
"I still wake up down a lot of days," the Coldplay rocker, 39, said on Sunday, March 20. "But now I feel like I've been given the tools to turn it around."
In March 2014, Martin and Paltrow, 43, infamously announced via a Goop newsletter that they were "consciously uncoupling" after 10 years of marriage. Though the break was amicable — the two remain great friends for the sake of their kids, Apple, 11, and Moses, 9 — Martin told the Sunday Times that he still grappled with failure.
He then started studying various scholarly works and came across a poignant poem called "The Guest House." "That one Rumi poem changes everything," Martin shared of the Persian poet's work. "It says that even when you're unhappy, it's good for you. It took me a year to get it. A year of depression and all that."
"You can come at it very aggressively and blame and blame," he mused. "Or you can put yourself in the garage, so to speak. Take yourself apart and clean off the bits. Reassemble."
The term "conscious uncoupling" was first coined by Katherine Woodward Thomas, whose breakup guidebook gives couples a five-step program to part ways amicably. Nearly two years after his split, Martin and Paltrow still have yet to finalize their divorce.
"It's always out there in the media, but I have a very wonderful separation-divorce. It's a divorce but it's a weird one," he said. "It's funny. I don't think about that word very often — divorce. I don't see it that way. I see it more like you meet someone, you have some time together and things just move through … I've lived a lot of life since then."
After parting ways with Paltrow, Martin dated Jennifer Lawrence on and off. He has since moved on to model Annabelle Wallis. Paltrow, meanwhile, has been dating Glee cocreator Brad Falchuk since July 2014.
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