Corey Feldman Says Goodbye to Corey Haim: "I Miss You So Much"
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As other loved ones said goodbye to Corey Haim in a small funeral in his native Toronto on Tuesday, the late teen star's best friend Corey Feldman wrote a long, touching letter on his website.
Linked for much of his life to the "other Corey," Feldman didn't attend the Toronto service because Haim's family wanted it to be a "small private affair." (Haim died March 11 at age 38 of a suspected drug overdose.)
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Instead, the surviving actor paid tribute in writing, noting "Nobody will ever need me the way you did...my mission in live became saving yours."
Read the full text of Feldman's sad letter below:
Dear Corey,
This is for you on the day of your funeral. First off I am so sorry I am not there with you today. By that I mean my physical body is not with your physical body. However you know that my heart is right at your side. You also know the only reason I am truly not there is out of respect for your mother and her wishes to minimize the media attention as much as possible. I want your family to have a calm peaceful day. Hopefully we will not see one shot of the funeral on the news. Just know I am at home today projecting positive energy for you and your passing.
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I miss you so much already. When I think of something funny I don’t know who to tell it to. I find myself trying to call you but then remember your not there. I think about the new movies we will soon be doing together and then suddenly realise that the dream is over. I always feared this day would come, and often rehearsed how to face it. But once confronted with the reality of it, it’s so much more painful than I could have ever imagined. Nobody will ever understand the brotherhood we shared. Nobody will ever get the inside jokes we told. Nobody will understand the magic of 22/222 . Nobody will ever know how to do the secret Corey handshake. Nobody will ever make me laugh as hard as you did. Nobody will ever make me fight as hard as you did. Nobody will ever challenge me the way you did. Nobody will ever need me the way you did.
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My mission in life became saving yours. I never gave up, I tried …I walked away, but I always came back, to let you know I was there. In a dark and lonely world with spiteful angry people we always understood each others pain. I have been so hounded by the media and barraged with condolences since your death that I have not been given my own time to grief. I was still in shock while cameras were chasing me down the street looking for my feelings on the matter. When I did Larry King I could barely form sentences, but knew I had to be strong to send a message.
I never knew your death would have such a huge impact on the world. I learned something Corey, there are a lot of people out there who really love you, and appreciate the joy you have brough tho their hearts. I only wish you could see the way the world is mourning over your absence. I wish you could see how big the story is. I wish you could see your face finally filling the cover of People magazine and Entertainment Weekly! That would have meant so much to you. It is such a shame they all had to wait until you were gone to give you the respect you were due as an actor which is what you truly were. The great Canadian actor Corey Haim! I love you and I will forever keep that ring close to my heart. I will do my very best to help give you a memorial that is a celebration of your life the way you would have wanted it…..with everybody laughing and rocking out!
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My heart is so broken and I know there are so many who feel the same way I do. We will remember your spirit and your fans will help me keep your legacy alive.
I pray that you are safe and warm and finally filled with peace.
I love you
CF Core Feldog DAWG C-DOG KID and every other name you used to call me…..dine!
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37its still a bit of a shock for me that one of the coolest actor is gone. my mind sort of wonders off, time to time thinking if he is really at peace. and well even though i never meet him i feela small pitch of pain inside of me. i love you rest in peace.
There are probably many people more full of $hit in this world, but they all conceal it better than Cory Feldman does. He's a legend in is own mind.
Corey Feldman was a true friend to Corey Haim for years and there is plenty of evidence to back that up. The actress who was in an unreleased low budget movie that Corey Haim made last year is using his death to get publicity for herself in a way that is so disgusting it makes me fear for humanity. She pretends that she was super close to him and now has a fan page. We are talking about someone who less than a year ago was working giving massages in the Maritimes. She has not done any other work worth noting at all other than a crappy short film that won an award at a festival that played in a school gym and is preening in her frosted lipstick and making "official statements" about a man she knew for less than one year, all while directing people to her official website that is full of spelling mistakes. If you are going to attack anyone for using his death for publicity, do not attack Corey. He was a brother and true friend. It is people like this talentless, ugly piece of garbage who should be under the gun for their phony mourning. I can only imagine the display this chick will put on at his memorial. She should be ashamed of herself for her disgusting behaviour. As a member of his extended family, I can assure you, no one is impressed with her garbage.
I feel terrible now for calling him a jerk. The letter is a beautiful tribute. RIP Corey You were loved.
Corey's letter is very sweet. I am so sorry for your loss.
So sad for Corey's Family and friends. Everyone grieves in thier own way, so people should be respectful of thier feelings. I will miss Corey along with his other fans. We will never know how great his life could have turned out. RIP Corey.
i'm so sad! i loved him too! condolences! so sad.........
Corey may not have come across very well on Larry King Live but after reading this letter I truly believe his pain is real. Rest in Peace Corey, you will forever be in the heart of millions
Are you kidding me Feldman. That is all you have to say about Haim. Your a frickin loser with no feelings. Wow and your wife is grossssss
I love it,very respectful and a thoughtful letter. RIP Corey Haim.
Friends come and go in your life for a reason. Corey may not have always been there for him but still cared. If you have never lost a loved one you are so fortunate. The hundreds that pay their respect and say "if you need anything let us know" slowly drift away and you are here to grieve and mourn and not know what road to take!
Yet again..turning someone else s death into all about him!!!!!!!! Clue they didn't want another mj spectacle and yet..You still did it!!!!!!!! Good job idiot!!!!!!!!
OMG, can Feldman shut it? My GOD! I highly doubt he was even wanted @ this funeral yesterday. Look at the pallbearers...all in the same age group as the Corey's. Haim's mom is probably just so TIRED of hearing Feldman's whining trap and figured he'd show up at the funeral making it all about HIM. UGH. Did anyone hear him tell Larry King that the past year was rough for him? "First, I lost Michael, which was devestating..." I wondered who he was talking about and then King said "who?" and Feldman say's "Michael Jackson". OH PLEASE!!! It made me laugh after hearing the sad news about Haim :-( About 3 weeks ago, TMZ got the Two Corey's out one night. The Camera Guy asked Feldman how things were going after the divorce. Feldman ACTUALLY SAID he appreciated the Tiger Saga, for it not for that the Paps would have been all over he and Susie's bust up. It's all just so sad and pathetic. Oh, and Redvengeance, Susie, Feldman's wife divorced him last year. GEE, I wonder why??
MOLLY YOU'RE AN IDIOT. REALLY IT WILL BE READ FOR GENERATIONS? I HOPE YOUR'E BEING SARCASTIC!FELDMAN COULDN'T EVEN SHOW UP AND PAY HIS RESPECT. WHY BECAUSE COREY HAIM WASN'T FAMOUS LIKE MICHAEL JACKSON PERHAPS?!
First Corey Feldman used his friends pain, and now his death, for his own selfish purposes. Buy your homely wife another set of fake boobs and look at yourself in the mirror Feldman. When you were a kid you and Corey Haim connected...and why? Because you werent fake yet. Your friend never transitioned to the fake Hollywood world like you did. He stayed young at heart and a real person, it was so obvious. The way you treated your friend on your reality show with him made people see you for who you are...a self-centered person with no concept of reality. Funny that so many fakes make reality shows... Not one apology in your letter for the way you treated your friend in life. Not one regret except to say you wouldnt be at the funeral. I am sure they would have let you attend if they wanted you there. But apparently they didnt feel that you were "close" and they were right. You werent. Its a shame how you made your friend feel rejected from your elitist lifestyle...and how he struggled because he was a real person and you werent. How he wanted to wear that artificial shell around like you do! But some people cant do that. How you and your shrewish wife criticized Corey's apology in that producers rag magazine on "The Two Coreys"...how hard do you have to push another person down to make yourself feel above them? Take a good look in that mirror, Feldman. Your friend is dead and now you have no one to use as a whipping boy. You were a bad friend and you deserve to know it.
Hmmm. I could get slammed for this, but my initial thoughts on Corey F the past week....First off, I'm 34 and was a HUGE fan of the Corey's. That said, I got a little fired up listening to Feldman on LKL last Wednesday night. Condeming "Hollywood" for turning their backs on Haim. Having watched 'The 2 Corey's' on A&E, I gotta tell ya.."H" was a flippin mess, who turned his back on himself. Feldman's Holier than Thou attitude really rubbed me the wrong way. Instead of chastising Hollywood and Haim's fanbase, he could use this time to stress the importance of NEVER STARTING down this path, and if you do, reach out for the help you need. The last thing Corey friends and family needed to do was help him 'break out' again. It was to finally, somehow, get clean. For anyone that thinks that would have been impossible for Corey, look at Todd Bridges. 17 years sober. Again, HUGE Fan of 'LUCAS" and "License to Drive"....me and my gal pals back in the 80's loved these guys to death. 20 years later, I'm so glad to live a life so different from them. RIP Corey. I hope you are in peace, finally.
Good god you people are so mean. Show some f%#$ing compassion. If someone YOU loved keeled over I'm sure you wouldn't be so d#mn flippant...that said I thought it was heartfelt, sad & honest. Well done Feldman.
leave corey f. alone you mean people...he's suffering enough. i'm glad his precious friend finally has peace from this cruel and cynical world. fly beautiful angel xo
RIP Haimster, you will always be a legend to me.
RIP Haimster, you will always be a legend to me.