"Life isn't like a Full House episode," writes Jodie Sweetin in her explosive memoir unSweetined (out November 3). She should know. In 1995, after an eight-year run as Stephanie Tanner on the ABC hit, she spiraled into a cycle of drug abuse, including ecstasy and crystal meth. And despite having daughter Zoie in 2008 and proclaiming to People and Good Morning America that she was sober, the two-time divorcee continued to snort cocaine -- and, one reckless night, drove drunk with her baby. Now 27 and clean, Sweetin discusses the book's bombshells with Usmagazine.com.
No. 1: Sweetin got so drunk at costar Candace Cameron's wedding in 1996, she vomited and had to be carried out.
"I probably had two bottles of wine, and I was only 14. That first drink gave me the self confidence I had been searching for my whole life. But that set the pattern of the kind of drinking that I would do."
No. 2: Sweetin graduated to ecstasy in high school and cocaine in college.
"I wanted to prove that I could get more trashed than anyone. There were times I did so much coke, I'd be there laying there, getting sick and thinking 'I'm going to die.' But I didn't care."
No. 3: During the premiere for Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen's 2004 movie New York Minute, she walked the red carpet "high as a kite" and snorted meth in a bathroom stall.
"I was pulling off the deceit. It was hard for people to believe I was doing that much drugs. I look at photos from that event, and I didn't even look strung out!"
No. 4: When she was 9 months old, Sweetin was adopted. She later learned her biological mom also abused drugs and her dad was killed in a prison riot.
"I would hear stories about my mom leaving me to go off and party. And for years I was like, 'F*** her. How could somebody do that to their kid?' When I started seeing my own addiction getting in the way of being a mom, I finally understood: If you're not in the right place to get sober, you're not ready to be a mom."
No. 5: Though she bragged about her sobriety to Good Morning America and People in June 2008, she was secretly still getting high.
"I was selfish, self-serving, insecure, angry and fearful person living a double life. I covered up my problems by pretending to be happy and saying that everything was fine."
No. 6: She drove drunk with her baby daughter.
"That was the big rock bottom. I had two glasses of wine and drove with her in the car. I not only put myself in danger, but also my daughter, who I loved more than anything. I felt terrible."
No. 7: She's still battling with second husband Cody Herpin for shared custody of Zoie.
"I got sober for good on December 7, 2008. I was flying to L.A. and I ended up taking a bunch of Nyquil and drinking a s---load. When I got home, I got a call that there was an emergency custody investigation because of my drinking. From that day forward, I threw myself into going to AA and avoided people who do blow off their coffee tables. We're working on a custody agreement right now. But life is good. I'm happier than I can remember."