Gone, but not forgotten.
Johnny Knoxville is mourning the loss of his friend and Jackass costar Ryan Dunn. Knoxville, 40, spoke at Dunn's memorial service on Wednesday, but he took to his blog to say "what I wished I could have told everyone then."
"I felt 34-percent funnier when I was with Ryan, but I guess everyone did," Knoxville said. "He had such a hair trigger laugh reflex. He lived his life wanting to laugh and wanting you to laugh with him. He would cackle really f**king loud, too, and it wasn't uncommon that he would fall over from it. Sometimes I would fall with him because his spirit was very contagious."
Knoxville noted that Dunn "wasn't incapable of seriousness" and was "a great listener." The 34-year-old stuntman also had "an enormous capacity to love."
"A lion's share of [Ryan's love] went to his sweet and beautiful Angie," Knoxville said. "If he wasn't with her he would be talking about her. More times than not he would smile wide through that filthy ass beard of his and say something along the lines of, 'How did I ever luck up and land her?' Well, it sure wasn't because of the way he smelled that's for sure. (Dunn despised water and rarely bathed.) It was because he had a pure, open heart, and many other qualities of which I am writing about now."
Knoxville lamented that Dunn's death "isn't right" and recalled telling his daughter Madison, 15, about his friend's death. "Rocko will never get to know you like she did, nor will my daughter that is coming in October," he said. "I cry a lot about that."
"I know your spirit lives on in me, Angie, Bam [Margera] and everyone you touched, but that's pretty tough to see right now through the tears," Knoxville said, "I'm just very sad because I lost my brother and my world got about 134-percent less funny."