Paula Abdul gave her first interview since getting replaced by Ellen DeGeneres on American Idol to a Phoenix radio show Thursday morning.
"It's just going to be a different show," Abdul told the Johnjay and Rich Show on KISS FM Phoenix. Previously, she only discussed DeGeneres via Twitter, writing: "I think Ellen will be a gr8 judge on Idol."
The hosts asked her if she ever "broke down" while thinking about walking away from Idol.
"I think that happened during the time I was making that difficult decision [to leave], where I was fighting with myself back and forth" Abdul admitted. "Am I willing to go against what my beliefs are and have the same outcome?"
The New York Times reported she demanded $20 million to return to the show's ninth season.
Abdul also opened up about her post-Idol plans. (She's set to host VH1 Divas Thursday night.)
"I am doing so many things, I can't wait to tell you," she said. "I see myself...such a big part of what I've been doing is helping other people realize their dreams. I've only scratched the surface of things I want to do.
"I'm going to be producing my own shows -- not just in America. I'm going to be creating a show in Vegas. Pretty soon I'll be announcing some very exciting stuff with a network and production company," she said. "So I'm actually getting to do all the things that represent who I am. People have no idea."