Amber Portwood has a lot of regrets. Following her release from prison last November, the Teen Mom alum returned home to Indiana to be with her 5-year-old daughter, Leah. Readjusting to life in the real world has not been easy, though. In this exclusive clip from MTV's upcoming Being Amber special, airing Sunday, Feb. 23, the reality star breaks down after realizing how much time she missed with her little girl.
"I feel so f---ing bad," she says, sobbing, as her daughter listens on the other side of the door. "I left her for so long...I know why she's acting the way she is. She's afraid that I'm gonna f---ing leave her again."
"I just f---ing hate everything I did," Portwood continues through her tears. "It was all the drugs and s--t. It was all I did. All I did was get f----ed up."
Indeed, Portwood confessed to Dr. Phil in December that she was high "every time" she appeared on camera on Teen Mom. Rehab stints for her addiction to prescription pills proved unsuccessful, and in May 2012, she asked a judge to send her to prison for five years.
Watch the emotional clip above, and tune in to Being Amber on Sunday, Feb. 23, at 8 p.m. on MTV.