She was le miz. Anne Hathaway apparently wasn’t thrilled when she won her first Oscar for best supporting actress in 2012’s Les Miserables. (Relive the moment when Hathaway became an Oscar winner in the video above.)
“I felt very uncomfortable,” the 33-year-old told The Guardian in a new interview published on Thursday, October 20. “I kind of lost my mind doing that movie and it hadn’t come back yet. Then I had to stand up in front of people and feel something I don’t feel which is uncomplicated happiness.”
While filming the movie version of the long-running Broadway musical, the actress cut her hair and lost weight to play prostitute Fantine. She often spoke about how she was on the brink of collapsing due to the strict diet and long hours.
When the 2013 Oscars rolled around, she felt guilty for wearing that $80,000 pink Prada gown and millions of dollars’ worth of Tiffany & Co. jewelry. “It’s an obvious thing, you win an Oscar and you’re supposed to be happy. I didn’t feel that way,” she said. “I felt wrong that I was standing there in a gown that cost more than some people are going to see in their lifetime, and winning an award for portraying pain that still felt very much a part of our collective experience as human beings.”
Hathaway said she faced a lot of backlash after her Academy Award win. “I tried to pretend that I was happy and I got called out on it, big time. That’s the truth and that’s what happened,” she said. “It sucks. But what you learn from it is that you only feel like you can die from embarrassment, you don’t actually die.”
The Princess Diaries actress also told The Guardian where she sees herself 25 years from now. “I’m just going to be staring in awe of my son,” she said of her baby boy, Jonathan Rosebanks, whom she welcomed with her husband, Adam Shulman, in March. “I’m a mum for the rest of my life.”
