For Susie Evans, freezing her eggs was an especially emotional experience.
“When I started my injections, I knew I was going to vlog the process, but I was coming off of a really tough week,” Susie, 32, said in a Friday, August 14, YouTube video, introducing the footage from her procedure. “I was super emotional. My little sister was diagnosed with cancer last year, and earlier that week, she FaceTimed me [when] she had shaved her head from chemo.”
As the Bachelor Nation alum prepared to begin her fertility injections, she also internally faced persistent anxiety.
“I was battling with this anxiety of, ‘Am I a good enough sister? Am I a good enough daughter?’ [I was] feeling guilt for living so far away,” Susie said of settling in California away from her family’s native Virginia. “All of these overwhelming thoughts and feelings [were] creeping into my head. ‘What am I doing with my life? Should I be in L.A.? Am I doing the right thing? Am I ever going to find somebody here?’ I was just dealing with so much stuff.”
Despite the emotional toll, Susie still feels that she made the correct — and personal — decision to freeze her eggs.
“[For] someone like me who wants to be a mom [and] I dream of having a family someday, but I’m 32 going on 33 pretty soon,” she said. “That’s not to say that five years from now, I’m not going to have a totally natural, healthy pregnancy without having to use these eggs. You never know what’s in store for you, but the thing that I love about it is that it’s taking control of what you can, right now.”
Susie continued, “I know that my eggs are going to be the youngest, the healthiest, most pristine that they’ll ever be. So, why not get a batch of them put aside in case I need them in the future?”
Susie announced in May that she was beginning the process of freezing her eggs, which involved introducing an influx of hormones into the body to trigger the ovaries to release eggs.
“I officially started hormone injections in preparation for my egg retrieval in about two weeks,” she captioned Instagram footage of the process. “Yesterday was very emotional for me starting the medication. I felt a combination of fear, sadness and immense gratitude for the science that makes this possible and for the opportunity to freeze my eggs.”
Susie noted that she decided to go through the egg-freezing journey because she’s “still figuring out the marriage and kids chapter” of her future.
“I look at the life I’ve built and the blessing of having the option to freeze my eggs and I feel incredibly grateful,” she stated at the time. “So without further ado, let’s get these eggs on ice, y’all!!!”
