Jon Gosselin: It’s “Constantly Annoying” When Kate Gosselin Yells

On Monday's Jon & Kate Plus 8, Kate Gosselin resumed her "stress relief beach vacation" with her eight children on Bald Head Island, N.C. Kate said the fact that her future family vacations would be without Jon "was never lost on me the entire time. It was weird to pack alone, to board the bus. It was minus Jon anyway you look at it. Many times everyday it occurred to me this will probably be how it will be." During the second week of their trip, Kate made the kids bacon and sausage, took them to the beach and to the serpentarium. (The kids also acted out little plays which Kate said they picked up from her. As a kid, Kate used to put on shows forher grandparents. "I have very vivid memories of – are you surprised – drama!" she said.)

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Kate said "I can do the best I can do for my kids… but I can never make up for him. I can't make up for the fact that he's not here. It's difficult." While the kids were vacationing, Jon was overseeing the kitchen renovations. He said it was odd not having the little ones around. (But he said he was glad Kate wasn't there because she would have been "yelling that there's a mess," which he said would have been "constantly annoying.") "It's hard to talk about," Jon said of the end of his marriage. "It's a fact of life; this is the way it's going to be. I don't think I'll ever get used to it… but it's becoming more comfortable now." Twins Mady and Cara left the trip early, as they had to finish school. They were thrilled to see their dad, but were put off by his earrings. "What's in your ears?" one of them asked. Jon – whose Ed Hardy T-shirt was blurred out – said he'd had his ears pierced since he was 15 and denied he was going through a mid-life crisis. He said it's "always the way I express myself. Things are coming out a lot more now. This is who I am."

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At the end of the show, Kate returned home to see the kitchen renovations Jon had been overseeing. "I was grouchy that morning when we arrived home," she said, adding that "it probably didn't seem like I was grateful." She added that the kitchen "was beautiful. There was some rearranging that needed to be done… women know what i mean."

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