Teen Mom's Amber Portwood: I Can Be a Better Mother!
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Amber Portwood has been doing a lot of soul searching since being placed behind bars on December 19.
In a letter to her brother obtained by TMZ, the 21-year-old Teen Mom star said she misses spending time with her family, including her 3-year-old daughter, Leah (with ex-boyfriend Gary Shirley).
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"I don't think I'll ever take this sh-t for granted," a discouraged Portwood wrote. "I'm really scared I'm going to prison. I don't know what I'll do. All I think about is Leah and how she needs a role model. If I can get out, I can really show her what a good mother is."
"I don't want people thinking I'm this crazy bitch," the MTV star added. "I am a good person and I pray that I can change my life!"
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Portwood -- who also apologized for her poor penmanship, explaining that "the pens they give us bend so we can't stab anyone" -- argued that she's not really an "endangerment to society."
"This sh-t is getting out of hand," she complained. "I wouldn't hurt anyone!"
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Portwood is scheduled to appear in court on January 27. If convicted, the Teen Mom star faces up to two years in prison.
