Hugh Hefner, 84, shouldn't expect an engagement present from ex Holly Madison.
The Holly's World star, 31, admits she wasn't exactly thrilled to hear of the Playboy magnate's holiday engagement to gal pal Crystal Harris, 24.
Madison, whose seven-year romance with Hefner ended in October 2008 after he refused to commit to marrying her, told E! Online Wednesday that she was "very surprised" to hear of their betrothal.
"I have a lot of different feelings on it," she continued. "I don't just feel one way. I kind of didn't want to put a generic statement out there like 'Congratulations!' because I felt everyone would see through that."
Instead, Madison shared her thoughts with the happy couple face-to-face when she paid a visit to the Playboy mansion Thursday — while cameras for her reality show rolled, of course.
"I'd describe it as awkward," she told UsMagazine.com at a Television Critics Association reception Wednesday. "I just wanted to get my feelings out about the engagement and I wanted to talk to him first. It's definitely awkward to feel like you're confronting someone I'm glad I did it. I wanted to be fair and tell him first."
Despite her mixed feelings, Madison's not exactly pining for her former paramour. She reveals she's been dating All Time Low guitarist Jack Barakat since September.
"We're just keeping it very chill," she said. "He makes me very happy."
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