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Kanye West Emerged From Nitrous Trip at the Dentist’s Office With “New Attitude on Everything”

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Kanye West emerged from a nitrous trip at the dentist's office with a "new attitude on everything" -- get the fascinating, first-person recollection of his hazy experience.

His Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy… in the dentist’s office! Kanye West told Paper in its April 2015 cover story that “vibing out” on nitrous gas during one visit to the dentist’s office made his life perspective surprisingly clearer.

“One time I was at the dentist’s office and I was given nitrous gas and I was vibing out,” West, 37, told the mag. “I guess that’s my version of Steve Jobs and his LSD trip — when I had this first thought: What is the meaning of life? And then I thought, To give. What’s the key to happiness? Happiness. What do you want in life? When you give someone something, should they give you something in return? No. We don’t have to expect to be compensated by the person we give to. Just give.”

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West used his religious background to explain his thought process. “I’m a Christian so I’ll speak in Christian terms: God will give you tenfold,” he said. “Then I said in my mind — I’m still under the gas and getting my teeth cleaned — But I just want to be remembered. And I immediately corrected myself. I said, It doesn’t even matter if I’m remembered.”

That nitrous trip transformed West’s mentality. “I came out of the gas and had a completely new attitude on everything,” he noted. “It’s fine to not get credit for everything; it’s almost better. For the amount of things that I really want to do, it can only work if I’m credited for about 20 percent of them. Because if I’m really credited for the amount of things that I’m going to do and what I want to do, it’s just too much. The reward is in the deed itself. The times that I’ve looked like a crazy person — when I was screaming at an interviewer or screaming from the stage — all I was screaming was, ‘Help me to help more! I’ve given all I’ve got. I’ve gone into f—ing debt. It’s all I’ve got to give. But if I had a little bit more opportunity, I could give so much more.’ That’s what I was screaming for. Help me to help more.”

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While he rose rapidly to fame through music, West said he’s more focused these days on fashion and exploring other creative fields. “I made a decision at that point to focus on painting with sound instead of painting visually,” the “All Day” rapper said of his past. “I loved music. I loved it more than I love it now. But I think that can happen with anything. You can live in New York for 10 years and say, ‘I now want to move to San Francisco.’ It’s just harder for me to do music now, period. It’s easier for people who focus on it all day and who are younger in their concept of what they want to do with it. I am not what I would consider truly a musician. I am an inventor. I am an innovator.”

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One thing he’s not? A member of the Illuminati. “I heard a comment — a joke — about the Tidal press conference being an Illuminati moment,” he said of the Jay Z-helmed entrepreneurial endeavor. “If there was actually an Illuminati, it would be more like the energy companies. Not celebrities that gave their life to music and who are pinpointed as decoys for people who really run the world. I’m tired of people pinpointing musicians as the Illuminati. That’s ridiculous. We don’t run anything; we’re celebrities. We’re the face of brands. We have to compromise what we say in lyrics so we don’t lose money on a contract. Madonna is in her 50s and gave everything she had to go up on an award show and get choked by her cape. She’s judged for who she adopts. F— all of this sensationalism. We gave you our lives. We gave you our hearts. We gave you our opinions!”

When it comes to his personal life, West said he was fighting for his daughter Nori‘s future. “Let’s just tap back into the real world for a second — we can have children. Let’s be thankful,” he preached. “We can raise our kids, let’s be thankful. But how about we raise our kids in a truthful world, not a world based on brands and concepts of perception? Perception is not reality. When I look in North’s eyes, I’m happy about every mistake I’ve ever made. I’m happy that I fought to bring some type of reality to this world we choose to stay in right now, driven by brands and corporations.”

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He cited his own past as an anecdote for why he thinks differently. “When I was 10 years old I lived in China, and at the time they used to come up to me and rub my face to see if the color would rub off,” he recalled. “It was really f—ed up, but I feel like it was preparing me for a world perspective that a lot of my friends who never got a chance to travel didn’t get. Now my perspective, a lot of times, is so much wider than someone who’s limited to the concept of any particular so-called world that’s not the real world. I take into account all of what’s happening, from the boom of business in San Francisco to the poverty in Africa — and that is wide perspective.”

His hope, he concluded, was for 22-month-old Nori’s world to be different. “Racism is something that’s taught, but for the new post-Internet, post-iPad kids that have been taught to swipe before they read, it’s just not going to affect them as much,” he noted. “They realize that we are one race. We’re different colors — my cousins and I are different shapes and we’re all from one family. We’re all from one family called the human race. It’s simple as that. This race is up against some interesting things — poverty, war, global warming, classism — and we have to come together to beat this. It’ll only be as a collective that we can beat this, and we can. We can create a better world for ourselves.”

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