Kesha Speaks Out About Battling Eating Disorder: “I Went to a Dark Place”

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Kesha opened up to Vogue about her past eating disorder Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images

Kesha is on the mend, but before seeking treatment for an eating disorder in early 2014, the “TiK ToK” singer told Vogue that she was in a “dark place.”

“I’ve had a lot of ups and downs,” the pop star, who has completely toned-down her look, told the magazine in a recent interview. “It’s been quite a journey. I went to a dark place. There was a lot of not eating.”

Kesha explained that she took criticism so harshly that she began starving herself. “I started to think being hungry to the point of feeling almost faint was a positive thing. The worse it got, the more positive feedback I was getting,” she recalled. "Inside I was really unhappy, but outside, people were like, ‘Wow, you look great.’”

The now-healthy singer remembered singing her upbeat songs, but not feeling genuinely happy.

“I was singing these songs like ‘We R Who We R’…But I was sad and [I wasn’t eating]. That’s not good for your body, metabolism, or brain. I talked to my therapist, and she said, ‘I think it’s time we take a moment to address this.’ I called my mom one night and I told her, ‘I need help,’” she opened up to the mag. “I went to an eating-disorder specific rehab site where a nutritionist taught me that food is a positive thing for your body. I realized being healthy is the most important thing I can do for myself. Now, I’m trying to embrace the skin I’m in.”

The 28-year-old admits that “it’s difficult,” but every day she chooses to “make the choice to be kind” to herself.

“This is who I am,” she concluded. “I have to love that.”

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