Julien Hug’s Suicide Note Read Aloud at Funeral


Former Bachelorette contestant Julien Hug was laid to rest in San Diego, Calif. Friday.

The restaurateur took his own life Nov. 3 with a self-inflicted gunshot wound; his body was found off a remote highway in the Southern California desert that same day.

According to E! News, hundreds of friends and family members gathered to mourn the loss of Julien, 35, at the Village Church in Rancho Santa Fe, Calif.

"He was depressed and struggling, and nobody knew," his grieving father Bertrand Hug told UsMagazine.com last week. "He couldn't find his way."

RadarOnline reports Julien's suicide note, addressed to his parents, was read aloud at the funeral.

"I'm sorry to have to do this to you. I love you both tremendously. You two are the best parents," he wrote. "I've suffered from severe depression for years. I feel awful and don't know how to cope. If life's not enjoyable, why stick around?"

Hug's girlfriend, Jennifer Bell, also spoke at the memorial service.

"I will miss every night where we would lie in bed and before he went to sleep he would whisper in my ear and say I love you," she said.

Julien, who vied for Jillian Harris' heart on The Bachelorette in 2009, was known as an adventurer and a thrill seeker by his former castmates.

"I will always remember Julien's gentle demeanor and kind heart, which will be sadly missed," Harris told Us.

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