The Biggest Revelations From Lamar Odom’s New Memoir ‘Darkness to Light’

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The Biggest Revelations From Lamar Odom's New Memoir 'Darkness to Light'

A book of bombshells. Lamar Odom did not hold anything back in his new memoir, Darkness to Light, which was released on Tuesday, May 28. The former professional basketball player opened up about numerous topics — including his tumultuous romance with ex-wife Khloé Kardashian, his difficult childhood, his past overdoses and his addictions to drugs, alcohol and sex. A source previously told Us Weekly that the NBA alum’s memoir would be incredibly revealing. “He’ll talk about [his and Khloé’s] relationship in the book, his regrets, the highs and the really lows,” the insider told Us on Tuesday, May 21, adding that the Keeping Up With the Kardashians star had not yet “read the book” at the time. While the Revenge Body host has not seen the book’s contents, a second source revealed earlier this month that she and her famous family are “not worried” about it. [jwplayer BjWKcWGk-l3ahXupL] Kardashian and Odom wed in September 2009, and she filed for divorce four years later. After the Olympic bronze medalist almost died from a drug overdose in October 2015, however, the Strong Looks Better naked author withdrew the divorce paperwork so she could serve as his caretaker. The duo officially split in December 2016, seven months after she filed for divorce for a second time. Odom has come a long way since he almost died in 2015, and wants to use the book to give fans an unfiltered look into his life. “His exclusive and revealing memoir recounts the highs and lows of fame and his struggle with his demons along the way to self-discovery and redemption,” a description for Darkness to Light reads on Amazon. “From the pain of his unraveled marriage to Khloé Kardashian to the harmful vices he used to cope — and the near-death experience that made him rethink everything about his life — this is Lamar as you have never before seen him.” Keep scrolling to read the biggest revelations from Odom’s just-released memoir:

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He Cheated on High School Exams

Odom almost failed out of high school and admitted that he paid a pastor named John Massey Jr. $15,000 to alter three of his failing grades to A's and B's. The former NBA star also confessed that he “wasn’t a good test-taker,” so he arranged for someone else to take his SATs. While the person who took the standardized test in Odom’s place did not get caught, his score of 1200 raised red flags, as the athlete was a C student, and caused the University of Nevada, Las Vegas to rescind his scholarship.

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He Had Orgies at His Home in Miami

The athlete remembered crazy parties at his home in Miami in the early 2000s, specifically one event that turned into a “full-blown orgy.” He recalled, "People were having sex in the pool, the Jacuzzi, on the lawn, in chairs, standing up against a heat lamp. … [The] party stretched into the wee hours, until every last fantasy had been fulfilled and every desire met.”

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He Used a Fake 'Black C--k' to Pass a Drug Test Before the Olympics

Prior to the 2004 Olympic Games, Odom purchased a “giant rubber black c--k” to pass a drug test. The Los Angeles Lakers alum enlisted the help of his trainer, Robbie David, who peed inside the fake penis. Odom then stuck the phallus inside his pants and mimicked urinating while the test administrator watched, completely unaware.

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He's Had Sex With Thousands of Women

As for how many women Odom has slept with throughout his lifetime? “More than 2000,” he admitted in the book. He explained that he does not “remember most of their names” because they were typically “one-night stands” or strippers. The New York native also confessed that he has a sex addiction. "I have been obsessed with sex as long as I can remember,” he wrote. “I used sex to fill the void.”

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He Paid for Numerous Abortions Over the Years

Odom’s sex addiction caused him to throw caution to the wind, often sleeping with women without using protection. These encounters, he said, led to several unwanted pregnancies. “I've paid for plenty of abortions over the years. I'm not proud of it,” he wrote. “It's the law and legal, but I don't feel proud about it at all.”

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He Overdosed for the First Time in the Mid-2000s

The Khloé & Lamar alum explained that the first time he overdosed felt “strange.” He noted, “Time slowed down. I couldn't swallow. … I couldn't breathe.” Odom was rushed to the University of Miami Hospital, where doctors gave him an IV of fluids and diagnosed him with dehydration. “I knew the truth,” he wrote.

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He Cheated on Taraji P. Henson

Odom and the Empire actress dated in the past, and while he felt extremely “connected” to her, he let his demons get in the way and cheated. “God gave me a layup and I blew it,” he wrote. “I felt guilty, but I was craving immediate sex.”

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He Threatened to Kill Khloé Kardashian During a Drug-Fueled Argument

The Olympian called the time he “forcefully” grabbed his ex-wife and threatened her “the most regrettable moment” in his life. One day during their marriage, Odom was high on drugs and got angry with Kardashian for coming into his room. He screamed at the Good American cofounder: “You trying to embarrass me in front of my friends? I'll f--king kill you! You don't know what I'm capable of!”

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He Can’t Remember How Many Times He Cheated on Khloe Kardashian

Cheating was a “regular part” of Odom’s relationship with the Keeping Up With the Kardashians star. “I had broken my vows with Khloé so many times it’s just impossible for me to remember them all,” he wrote. “I don’t know why Khloé stayed with me.”

Odom reflected on the incident where he says Kardashian beat “the s—t out of” a stripper, whom she caught him with in a hotel room. “[She] opened the door and pounced on the first girl she saw,” he wrote.

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He Regrets His 2015 Las Vegas Overdose

After he overdosed at Vegas’ Love Ranch in 2015, Odom knew he needed to make a change in his life. “I regret it to this day,” he said of the near-fatal incident, which left him with ruptured kidneys, collapsed lungs and a heart that stopped twice. Fortunately, the athlete survived the OD and had his ex-wife and former sister-in-law Kim Kardashian by his side during his recovery. “[Khloé] didn’t shower for four days and brushed her teeth in a small room next door,” he remembered. “Kim’s resilience was incredible too.”

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He Was Offered a Post-OD Reality Series

Although Odom’s family staged an intervention after he got out of the hospital, he “didn’t go to rehab right away.” It was only after a production company contacted him about doing a reality series titled Rebound about his “life after death” that he agreed to get help.