Hilary Duff Gets Real About Breast-Feeding as a Working Mom: I Felt ‘Like a Failure’


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Honesty hour! Hilary Duff didn’t have an easy time breast-feeding her daughter, Banks, as a working mom.

“Pumping at work sucks,” the Younger star, 31, captioned a Tuesday, May 7, Instagram upload. “I had zero down time and am usually pumping in a hair and makeup trailer while four hands work to get me ready for the next scene with lots of other people around. Even if I had the luxury to be in my own room, it’s not even considered a ‘break’ because you have to sit upright for the milk to flow into the bottles! Plus you are having your damn nipples tugged at by an aggressive machine that makes an annoying sound, that echoes through your head day and night. … Ttttthen having to find someplace to sterilize bottles and keep your milk cold.”

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THIS ONE’S FOR THE LADIES Just a few thoughts that I wanted to share on Breast-feeding. Last week was my last week nursing Banks (my six month old) I am a working mom of two. My goal was to get my little girl to six months and then decide if I (and her of course) wanted to keep going. Let me tell you. Pumping at work sucks. I had zero down time and am usually pumping in a hair and make up trailer while four hands work to get me ready for the next scene with lots of other people around. Even if I had the luxury to be in my own room, it’s not even considered a “break” because you have to sit upright for the milk to flow into the bottles! Plus you are having your damn nipples tugged at by an aggressive machine that makes an annoying sound, that echoes through your head day and night (I swear that machine and I had many conversations at midnight and 3 am)! Ttttthen having to find someplace to sterilize bottles and keep your milk cold (ok I’m done with that rant lol)! Anyway, I didn’t know this because with Luca I didn’t work until he was about nine months old, so I didn’t pump very often. Your milk supply drastically drops when you stop feeding as often and lose the actual contact and connection with your baby (😞). So I was eating all the feunugreek goats butt blessed thistle fennel cookies/drops/shakes/pills I could get my hands on! It was maddening. (Does fenugreek make anyone else smell like maple syrup and rubber gloves?…not chill) With all of this complaining, I want to say I enjoyed (almost) every moment of feeding my daughter. Felt so lucky to be so close to her and give her that start. I know many women are not able to and for that I am sympathetic and very grateful that I could. For six wonderful months. But I needed a break. I was going to break. With the stress of a dropping milk supply and a baby that was getting bored or not caring about nursing when I was available to. I was sad and frustrated and feeling like a failure all of the time. When really I’m a bad ass rock star. Moms get high on feeling like superwoman…because we are! Doing too much, because we can! KEEP READING in the comments below 👇🏼♥️

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The actress admitted she didn’t have the same problem with her now 7-year-old son, Luca, who she welcomed with her ex-husband, Mike Comrie, in 2012. She didn’t return to work until her baby boy was 9 months.

“Your milk supply drastically drops when you stop feeding as often and lose the actual contact and connection with your baby,” Duff wrote of nursing the second time around. “So I was eating all the feunugreek [sic] oats butt blessed thistle fennel cookies/drops/shakes/pills I could get my hands on! It was maddening.”

She added that while she enjoyed breast-feeding Banks and “felt so lucky,” she “needed a break.”

“I was going to break,” the singer wrote. “With the stress of a dropping milk supply and a baby that was getting bored or not caring about nursing when I was available to. I was sad and frustrated and feeling like a failure all of the time. When really I’m a bad ass rock star.”

The Lizzie McGuire alum and her boyfriend, Matthew Koma, welcomed their baby girl in October 2018.

The Texas native’s sister, Haylie Duff, gave birth to her second daughter, Lulu, four months before — and she told Us Weekly exclusively that the cute cousins are already best friends. She and fiancé, Matt Rosenberg, are also parents of daughter Ryan, 3.

“Yesterday we had them in the high chairs eating together and it was cute,” the Real Girl’s Kitchen author told Us in April. “We really dorkily like to match them and dress them up in the same outfits.”

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