Carter, 31, begins by describing her happier times with Jenner, 36. “At 25, I met the man I would eventually choose to marry,” she writes. “The legitimacy of that marriage has become a matter of public debate, but for he and I, it was very real.” (Carter and Jenner exchanged wedding vows in Indonesia in June 2018, but after their split, a source told Us Weekly the pair never obtained a marriage license in the United States.)
“He was quite possibly the most beautiful man on the planet, with a heart of gold and a tireless sense of adventure,” Carter writes of the Hills: New Beginnings star. “I was drawn to his spirit. ‘You’ll never be bored!’ my mom offered, as I wondered early on whether or not he was the right partner for me. Of course, she was right: I was never bored. He became my best friend, and together we had all the fun the world had to offer.”
Then came the tough times: “Eventually though, after years of constant ‘excitement,’ we found we’d done as much growing apart as we’d done growing up,” she recalls. “I began to spend a lot of time traveling on my own or with friends, quietly mourning what I knew in my heart would soon be the end of my marriage.”
A week after Carter and Jenner announced their split, the blogger was spotted kissing Cyrus, 26, and Carter details this “first and only romance with a woman” in the Elle essay. “I didn’t have to think about a thing or overanalyze,” she explains. “It just happened and it felt exactly right. Reflecting back on our three-year friendship, I realized I’d always been drawn to her in a way I wasn’t with other friends, but until that trip it had never crossed my mind to think of her in a romantic sense.”
Carter and Cyrus split in September, and the “Slide Away” singer later moved on with Cody Simpson. “While it was short-lived, I’ll remain eternally grateful to my most recent relationship for opening my eyes to this unexplored part of myself, and for inspiring a new level of self-discovery and wonder at all the possibilities of life,” Carter writes.
She goes on: “Although the relationship with my friend was often referenced in the media as merely a ‘summer fling’ or a ‘same-sex affair,’ it was so much more than that. This was a profound journey of self-discovery. For the first time, I listened to myself, forgot about the ‘norm,’ and lived. I hope that everyone, when given the chance, takes the time to understand who exactly their most authentic selves are, untethered from what we may have been taught to believe.”
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